sadistic beans

2008-10-24T01:07:00.000+08:00

so i had an inner voice. and this was what it penetrated into me necessantly:

stop trying to smile when you know you cant
stop trying too hard to hear yourself laugh again.
stop tearing, your tears wont reach anyone
stop swearing, the world wont wait for you
stop reaching out and thinking back through.

stop screaming with a hopeless voice
stop bleeding in that heart of yours.
stop taking yourself for granted.
stop your ridiculous wails for a better tomorrow.

stop telling people youre fine.
stop giving that face with a half hidden sorrow.
stop saying yes and making empty promises
stop trying to warm yourself up, when there's no one to give that warmth.

i'm drowning in my own emotions, my own wails, promises that i make to people and myself. I'm sinking into despair, being tickled by my own sensitivity, closing walls around me. I barely have a shoulder around me and my life's wasting away. I start to hate, i start to detest, i start to grudge, i start to give up...

so where did she go to?
where did denise go to?
where did her smiles went to?
where did her warmth went to?

if i could just pause my sight, my hearing, my vocals...
and stop my heartbeat for a moment.
maybe this world would become more peaceful.

if i could be allowed to fall slowly, and ignore everything.. what a wonderful world.

Denise currently does not wish to be spoken about how emo she is, cause i'll tell you why i am feeling so if i think you're close to me. if you do care, you can always tell me, it'll make me feel better, maybe. if you dont.. i dont realy care either, and it's best you leave me alone.

2008-09-24T18:50:00.000+08:00

HELLO DARLINGS

i see my last post can become a history text and that my blog has digital cobwebs crowning its edges. OOOh. Ok lah, sorry people for not updating, not like a large community comes to fancy my posts anyway.

Anyway, most of you know i'm right now in newcastle, UK... not LONDON... NOT ENGLAND.. just newcastle yeah? weather: pretty cold. have been raining like cats and dogs first 2 weeks. it was AWFUL. but still can tahan =D now the weathers awesome. at least no one's getting drenched, and the temperature is just right. cooling!

I miss singapore's food seriously. CAUSE SOME LOUSY COOK WHO I BELIEVED SO MUCH IN FAILED ME.. omg.. so sad lar. photos to be shown. no worries. This trip has been kinda fun =D dr ming is seriously damn funny and nice. we're lucky to be under his guidance and stuff. really appreciate it. WELL, people, if you're wondering what i do as an exchange student here. Ok, the serious part first, we're designing some hot water system, not for spa, just for bath's sake. If you want on-sen, i'm sure it can be arranged. Denise will be more than happy to line a big basin with stones and give u a self-designed kettle. But thou shall not be responsible for any accidents or problems associated with such. =D The not so serious part now, I LEARNT ABIT OF HOKKIEN, beat that! whoohoo~ i also learnt how to be more sarcastic and expand the horizons of torture and pain WAHAHAHA, and i also learnt some pool skills. Those who belittle me, watch out, i might just poke your ass.

well, i'm still alive and kicking if most of you are worried. There were some rough waters along the way, but i'm sure it got solved. I'm sure no one wants to go travelling with a sulky face huh. Bad news was i dropped the mini memento that my dear friends took much effort to make. Dont know how to break the news to them, i'm really SORRY and i was pretty emo for the whole night when it got missing. ><>To: choomin, yilin, jose, bei, ying jie, ming hui, i'm so friggin sorry and pissed with myself for losing it =( ouch. i'll buy you all your souvenirs.

Lastly, i miss club!! Sorry to my dear friends who are stressing themselves through the meetings, and sorry i cant attend my PR subcom's outing and meetings ( wait, i dunnoe if they managed to hold one -.-LOL) wait for my return k?

Anyway, to prove that i'm still alive and existing in this world.. here's a tribute of myself.. just kidding.. pictures!!! note: pictures of everyone and more, can be found in my facebook =D cox blogger sucks at uploading photos..so yeah. give me time.

Denise with bed of flowers behind her
" I CHOP YOU WITH MY KNIFE!!" you know, alot of ppl here thinks all chinese know kung fu. and in front of me, you shall see my dear full english breakfast delicacy
The house we LIVED IN. that place GOT SLUGS LOR. can you believe it? I BATHED WITH SLUGS. that's my kitchen anyway. And the pot we were holding emitted some green coloured smoke when i was boiling water. Dun even talk about the smell.
In UK's so called wet market? Except it's not wet! It's very nice and clean and nice smelling.
Tynemouth priory and castle. Couldnt access cause part of it was gobbled by the storm and repair works were ongoing. So! It served as my beautiful background.

Well we didnt get to see the priory, BUT WE SAW THIS INSTEAD. LIVE RESCUE!! you dun get that at Singapore, cox the hospital is right next to your butt.
At an english PUB. Elijah was having his beer, me and peggy drank shandy. In the end i drank the most. both of them kept visitin the toilet for some reason. and Elijah is gay at drinking. HE SLEPT RIGHT AFTER ONE GLASS HAHAHAHA. From then on, i realised that i could only be drunk by fizzy orange juice. Alcoholic beverages have insignificant effect on me.
No i wasnt doing a wayang, i was trying to pose as SOMETHING OKAY. will give you week-to-week post about this whole trip. Then you can see what i was really doing.
MY TERRITORY. HAHAHAHHA.
For those football fans, this is one of our landmarks, and it's Newcastle F.C. The stadium's huge. Got a couple of pictures, and so happen that this was the kevin keegan controversy period. Ouch. You see football lunatics rampaging the streets like some political strike. wadeva.

Us in the bus! elijah looks friggin blur and weird. well, who cares =D
CHOP OFF MY HEAD AND I WILL HAUNT YOU... wait i look like sadako. RELEASE ME!!!!
MY loving pet. BEWARE OF DRAGON. I shall call it Fairy. (dont ask me why i gave it this name, it's upon impulse)
One of our dishes. I cooked the sausage. It was great, but fire maybe abit big, other than that, the exterior was crispy and interior was juicy crunchy. Don't ask about the 1st dish. It was burnt by thou i shall not name. i think it was elijah. OOPS. i cooked a nice golden brown egg though.
BEHOLD PRINCESS/ QUEEN DENISE. Bow your heads before me and feel my grasp of wrath. Do not underestimate me fools, for my power shall....KOWTOW TO ME DAMMIT! say your prayers before i behead you etc. etc. etc.

STOP SNIFFING THE ARSE.
Did i tell you, we walked 2 damn hours to holy island. The algaes covering the rocks were like life-sucking parasites clinging to their Garden of Edo. Anyway to beat the high tide at the causeway, before we become submerged prawns, we hitchhiked! good thing was peggy managed to flag down one car and we got a ride across the causeway in time!!! =D
Me trying to hitchhike to berwick. problem is-i never succeeded once. In fact, i carried some sort of curse. Whenever i stood out to hitch hike, THE ROADS BECAME EMPTY. WTH? all the cars scared of me ah? do i look like some chinese ghost or terrorist. I BEG YOUR PARDON?!
See no touch. Touch no see. Cause all of it is in my tummy. ( above: mackeral, smoked salmon)
THIS LOOKS LIKE A BLOODY HAUNTED HOUSE OUT OF NO WHERE. We had no transport back to newcastle that day. I cant believe i suggested hiding in this house till morning. elijah wanted to walk all the way to berwick which was friggin far and which is a much lousier decision. But as elijah said, nothing is worse than me, so i just wonder. -_-

Anyway, that's all for now, i got hundred over pictures, alot of you want me to update my blog and tell you about my trip. There's much to this, but i want to go watch my anime or smth since i finished my project already. So let's stop here today okay? LOVE YA.

2008-06-28T00:48:00.001+08:00

MST is over. i'm screwed for some paper. i can't believe i just sacrificed my dear holiday for this -_- thanks hurr, whuever gave the feedback to encourage MST. Anyway with practical as such a heavy ass shell on us, it's no wonder some give way to pressure. dont wanna think about my screwed papers anyway -_-
BACk to topic, MY BLOG HAS ROTTED, i shall revive it abit. tagged by yilin, so yah, i shall do the tag first. OH DID YOU PPL KNOW MY CRAZY SISTER IS BACK FROM AMERICA quite long ago, hahaha... pictures to come.. aWAIT!

yilin tagged me..People who have been tagged must write their answers on their blogs & replace any question that they dislike with a new question formulated by themselves.
Tag 7 people to do this quiz & those who are tagged cannot refuse. These people must state who they were tagged by & cannot tag the person whom they were tagged by. Continue this game by sending it to other people.

1. If your lover betrayed you, what would ur reaction be?
Lets see. Get pissed. get knife. castrate. NO.. i'm just kidding! but i'll probably dump that faggot and defame him for his obnoxious nature.

2. If you can have a dream to come true, what would it be?
To become rich. -_- money is the base of all dreams.

3. What will your dream wedding be like?
maybe celebrity like? First a proposal across the mediterranean sea. Then, a full italiano type wedding in a classy beach restaurant, with flower confettis and a lively romantic atmosphere. Lastly, a darling limousine to fetch me to the airport and to HONEYMOON!

4. Are you confused of what lies ahead of you?
Not really. Deal with the present, and the future will be taken care of. There is only destiny and destiny it shall be.

5. What's your ideal lover like?
SEXY? ok i'm kidding! HAHA. my ideal lover would be someone taller than me, average looking but probably be the most handsome to me, someone who will support me through difficult times, loyal, preferred if smarter than me (i'm average, dont worry), has financial assurance, and of course most importantly, love me above all else (except for his family).

6. Do you have a person you wish you will be with now?
still searching. presently single, and currently dating anybody who is willing to pay for my dinner and abit of my shopping <3

7. Which is more blessed, loving someone or being loved by someone?
I think it's both. double sided love is better than one-sided right =D

8. How long do you intend to wait for someone you love?
not for now, but definitely before my late twenties sign sink into my skin.

9. If the person you secretly liked is already attached, what would you do?
i wouldnt go after him anymore. There's alot of trees out there =D kidding! i guess if i really liked him, i wouldnt wanna disrupt his happiness unless his gf is a bimbotic bitchy witch. =D but reality check, i wait for initiation, i dont initiate.

10. Is there anything that makes you unhappy these days?
YES. THE SHITTY MST. LOL

11. Is being tagged fun?
not really -_-

12. Are you frank with ur friends and bf/gf?
yeah. be straighforward but be cautious with your words.

13. Who are currently the most important people to you?
My family and lovable friends. CAN I SAY MY DOG RUSKY TOO? LOL

14. What kind of person do you think the person who tagged you is?
a very bony person XD rofl! she's sexy, she crappy, and she's got a great personality.

15. Would you rather be single and rich, or married but poor?
that's so no life-er. rich and married duh. that's like every maiden's fairytale (well at least to me) =D let's hope i dont end up either way

16. Would you give all in a relationship?
Yes i would. Trust, love and respect, the ingredients to embrace a great relationship. if the other person loves me alot, i'll give it back definitely.

17. If you fall in love with two person simultaneously, who would you pick?
not so flirtatious. the only time i fall in love with two persons, is that if one is daniel henney and the other, takeshi kaneshiro. kidding! still wouldnt, cox if you fall in love, you're willing to sacrifice for that one person. 2 people just makes a stupid unworthy drama.

18. describe an ideal date.
Anything? be it eating, watching movie, just plain talking, shopping and stuff. but if it's a first date after the start of a relationship, of course it must have more setting lor -_-

that's it. i dunnoe who to tag lei -_- lazy. OH WELL. shall retire.. love you people.. TOODLES!

2008-05-01T12:39:00.000+08:00

i'm tired. finally it's labour day -_- sister finally back from the states too along with all her nonsense -.- oh well. regretted not taking her clothes to wear when she not around LOL. needs another 2.5 month holidayy man T.T i'm so sick of 2hr lectures. they're practically sucking my soul out. if i have to buy a packet of sweets to keep myself awake for every 2 hr lecture, i'm gonna die of overloaded sugar man.-_- and also just when i'm trying to get rid of my lousy weight. feel like getting some injection to melt my abdominal flubber LOL. it's damn fustrating to suck in a ton of air to tuck in the embarrassing layer can??! STILL, one cant forsake good food for appearance!! HAHAHAHA.

went to a restaurant at esplanade. nice ambience. they had these tall emperor-like chairs. LOL. some food were nice, some werent. service wasnt very good either, cox it's filled with foreigners who cant speak or hear proper english. communication breakdown man -.- gettin frustrated at these people who come reside on such a small land. at least learn how to speak an international language before coming here and stop smiling ridiculously when you dont understand!!!GRRrrr.

never mind that.

anyway some drools for you =D my dad holding his tea happily.
me and green apple juice
some appetizers!

honey coated prawns with strawberries on the side!
shark fin soup was awesome XD
the chilli fish wasnt that fantastic, i tot i swallowed some scale too o_o

A UBER CUTE small "bottle" containing clamansi juice XD
wagyu beef -.- tastes like frozen beef and it was pretty tough. appears that wagyu beef has standards and this is of the lowest standard.
scallop mee swa XD nice.
DESSERT!! smothered in mist. each cup containing delightful surprises XD

oh well that's all. i wanna buy a new school bag -.-

2008-04-26T23:46:00.000+08:00

quite a DISAPPOINTMENT. but STILL HAD FUN XD.

okay firstly gotta say we shud have waited in line first la instead of waiting for the rest to come T.T if not everyone could have gotten into MOS. darnit! no one told us at 9pm, only 18 and above are allowed in! UNFAIR!! the event was until 10 lorr. never mind.. can go next time -_- but have to pay for entry zzZ. i'm damn cheapskate, you know it. went wif shu fen, peggy and the incredible shun hong. guys decided to pang seh last minute despite persuading. -.- quite pissed at indecisive ppl. anyway i decided that unless they wan join us, i wun bother asking them along anymore, cox it was pretty much fun with just the 4 of us. went along wif club guys instead. didnt know they'll bring a rather large group of F.O peeps LOL. oh well. was squeezed like pancake by loads of cut-queuing people. after not finding out that they stopped accepting ppl under 18.. we were damn emo. so we decided to follow shun hong to see her play her extreme swing and bungee. this was wad happened:

one staff asked us, is it your friends bdae??

denise(sian tone): yeah. her bdae-.-

peggy, shu fen: haha yeah.

staff: REALLY? okay.. i give you a proposal! we never let the bdae girl go alone, so i'm giving each of you $20 tickets.

denise, peggy, shu fen(thinking): OMG!! more than 50% discount sia!! (by the way, shun hong bought it for like 50 bucks HAHAHHAHA)

asked him whether need check ID, he say dunnid. SO OKAY LOR, we are such LIARS. shu fen was damn scared so she didnt accept the offer. BUT PEGGY AND I DID! which after that, we were blaming each other for getting ourselves in such shit cox we became scared LOL. oh yah, shun hong met another gung-ho like her, some indian guy who bought the combo too. both of them became FRIENDS LOL. shun hong sat the bungee thingie first. the rest of us decided to shout happy bdae to her when the "ball" was rocking on the platform. the exciting part was, the ball suddenly shot into the air, and rotated while FALLING down OMG. the live video showed shun hong and her friend smiling happily. such sadistic ppl. funny thing was, after shun hong got down, alot of ppl congratulated her for her "bdae"! HAHA. LOL. anyway. come to the swing. realised kenna scammed, cox when i asked which one more recommended, the staff told me the swing which apparently has no vid and less exciting -.- NEVER MIND.

situation: buckling up at swing

peggy was sweating damn hard. HAHA. shun hong foreva happy go lucky. as the "bdae girl", she had to pull this lever when we're UP THERE, then the swing will release. quite cool. finally the swing started moving. and it got higher. just when i expected it to stop... it WENT BLOODY HIGHER. until i was facing parallel to the ground can? i WAS DAMN FREAKED OUT LA. me and peggy were like screaming our asses off. ( i have DAMN bad height phobia HAHA) that STUPID SHUN HONG NEVER GIVE WARNING. then she pull the lever. and we were like screaming like MAD LA. that was the first part, then after that we were screamin for fun. finally got down, but peggy was purposely not released from her belt cox she was pronounced the most scared, so the staff threatened to send her up again ALONE. then she was protesting like mAD HAHA. anyway found 2 bars that wun check ur ID if wan a dose of liquor. crazy elepahnt and bungee bar =D

ANYWAY PICTURE TIME:

After making up! XD
wif peggy at mrt station. taken benjamin
yu qin and benjamin at foodcourt(at central)
MOS. bloody packed.
shun hong trying to put in her contacts HAHAHA.
shun hong and her friend haha
three of us on the SWING HAHA
i applied eye liner. amateur job. the bloody thing smudged after a long day and i now got some BLACK EYE LOL. HAHAHA...

anyway, damn tired. shall go sleep -_-

2008-04-24T23:10:00.002+08:00

HELLO PEEPS. i haven been blogging for quite a while! apologies! anyway, my timetable sucks. what kind of shitty timetable is this? i want to complain sia. -.- everyone almost start school at the same time. CAN U BLOODY IMAGINE HOW SQUEEZY THE MRT IS? not to mention the STATION TOO?! i'd probably be flattened like some pancake with fats squishing out if i hadnt taken the pasir ris train. ANOTHER SHIT THING: thousands released for lunch around the same time. i'm given only a stupid hour. singaporeans are blllaaadddiie kiasuu okay! even young adults like us snatch for seats hor! the queue can probably demoralise any anticipating stomach like MINE and EVERYYBOODDIIE ELSE's. i end school as late as 6. and today i just had another 6 hrs of maths lecture combined with tutorial. @#$%&*#! tomorrow going MOS for some poly event. heard underage parties are disappointing. but since i get to go in free. WHO CARES?! XD i'm underage too anyway bwahahaha!

i'm tired. anyway for your entertainment...

those are MY shoes. THOSE, i swear. are yuqin's "pretty" feet. DAMN LADYLIKE RIGHT!?! HAHAHAHA.

oh well =D

2008-04-15T00:25:00.001+08:00

BACK TO SCHOOL
this SUCKS. i want a holiday REFUND! LOL. FO weekend activity was not long ago. was a GL and totally loved my 'kids' cause they are uber cute LOL. anyway... too tired to blog about it. still waiting for photos from both FOC and FOW. by the time i get them, FO is probably some outdated topic already. oh well.
this was what i did when i came home and after i watched one episode of anime. doesnt this BRING BACK MEMORIES. it still tastes good. bought it at queensway when i went to shop for sandals. yes, i was playing maple, was waiting for yd, julian, yq and xiao kay tee to do pq. -_- LOL. yes, that's my sub char in aquilla.
nathan bought the push pop candy at queensway when i bought it too. the way he sucks it looks so WRONG LOL. cudnt help laughing.
MY DREAM CAR. saw some ang moh driving it. dunnoe wads the bloody brand. hope it's not an exclusive or imported thingie. love convertibles cause they emphasize on the classic interior of the car. hope it's some baby mercedes convertible >< proof that sam abuses his 'wife'. peggy being one of his infinite number of wives. OH WELL. pretty random pictures for 1st day at school. BOREDOM.

went to see my 'kids' from Ananke eat dinner today. misses them* =D dunnoe where to get the photos we took during dinner though =/ will include in another post. oh yah saw sebes at sentosa that day. so embarrassing -_- LOL. oh well. that's all for now. everyone enjoy ur school days =)

2008-04-11T00:21:00.001+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE! went for a memorable class outing on wednesday. DCHE/FT/21 RAWKS! WHOO! let's not forget the main purpose of this outing was to bid farewell to one of our beloved classmates who will starting next sem, will face a different course and a different block, which is far from where we are. i was LATE! well, there were peeps later than me, SO MAKES NO DIFF XD HAHA. i thought i could pack and change in thirty minutes. appears i was wrong. by the time i packed my lotions in, it was almost 10am(the actual meeting time). the 'late' germ is rather contagious =D anyway HAD LOADS OF FUN. pictures and captions tell all =D this is gonna be a tremendously LONG POST! btw, i was STILL PEELING BADLY!! IF U ZOOM IN, I LOOK FRIGGIN UGLY
me and naziah riding in the monorail to sentosa!
don't you think they look like backstreet boys? except none of them can sing LOL.
me and shu fern in the monorail. she dun wanna open her mouth to show her teeth. guess why. =D
i pleated my hair out of boredom in koufu. xiu juan said i looked uber CUTE. so she offered to take a pic for me!
xiu juan covering her face with a jolly shandy can. i drank the contents =D YUMMY. no i'm not drunk. yes, i was craving for it.

from left: xiao juan, peggy, SEXY connie, naz, shu fern, and my gor's volleyball LOL.when you go to a beach, beach volley is a MUST! the whole game was hilarious. our team pawned the other. (by cheating of course LOL)the guys decided to dunk themselves in the water cause the sweltering heat almost dehydrated their skins. all look super funny when drenched. jian wei looks like he's in some 60's show when we zoomed in the pic. elijah-looks plainly stupid and unglam. he looks happy in his second home.mukkesh and jia feng willingly let us bury them, and shape them into curvacious mermaids with cute boobs! apparently jian wei is bad at moulding such shapes. he has no talent LOL.peggy and i were born stars. immediately spotted as potential actresses of future hollywood.. we were asked to act in some movie. title: the imptance of being earnest. our script: to keep walking along the beach. apparently our scene will be during the credits. movie sounds like some moral ed show. i hope i wun appear in kids central or primary school moral vid. -.- but then again, they were shooting hot babes at the same time. guess it's too porn for a pri schl kid to see some girl in bikini. rated nc16. just kidding. me and peg decided we were like twice the size of the 2 skinny babes. which was quite depressing for us. LOL.a close up shot on one of the babes. they sounded kind of bimbotic -.- they were asking me and peggy to act lovey dovey. we're nt even lesbians. those two were supposed to be some beach babes belonging to some billionaire named billy. the guy acting him totally fits the name. LOLelijah, me and jian wei. elijah is pouting his mouth, and thus he looks retarded. that's why i posted this picture. HAHAHA.stupid jia feng and alwin decided to do twiss signs on our heads! only 1/2 of faharn's head can be seen. and mukkesh's hair is all-natural.twiss on wee siong and weiming's heads! posing with cabinet gang XDi saw this realy pretty pink flower with a gradient of yellow at the centre. xiu juan asked me to pose with it while she took a piccy of me! =Dmeet the legendary LA JI TONG gang! which from next sem onwards, will cease to exist. connie is la. i am Ji and chen shyan is tong. there's no such crap as ji tong -.- btw chen shyan is wearing fake RALPH LAUREN POLO TEE! LOL.the three vain idiots, who wasted five camera shots. in this pic. jian wei is pretending to be short. while the other two basically try to act tall -.-me and the stupid fish. i dare say i'm prettier than the gay fish =Devidence that jian wei is always on the phone with one of his thousand and one girlfriends.

connie, me and peggy, somewhere along the clubbin area at clarke quay. we just wanted to explore, at the same time lure connie away while the guys were writing the farewell card.ryan's idea of a good random shot. well done LOL. i can only see two feet, and a spastic blue light.connie with her farewell card and photo album =D we will miss you my darling. dont ever forget us yeah? =) loves.

this is for all you people who wanna grab photos. not all are inside but most of them are, cuz i'm limited to 30 photos. so have fun grabbing =D just click to access the album.

2008-04-08T18:26:00.000+08:00

I'M PEELING. AND I'M STILL PEELINGGGGG... AHHHHHHHHHH....
stupid sun at sentosa last saturday totally killed my skin cells on my nose. and now I'M PEEEELLLIIINNNNGGG. ok. enough with the 'i'm peeling'-.-

went to schl to have weekend gl training again. today rather 'oh my gawd'. my legs still feeling quite jelly. long time never sprint, realised that my reluctant leg engines were groaning. ah well. after that went to meet auntie serene and poh siu. havent met them in a loong time. had a fun time with them. still feeling bloated from lunch sia =D LOL. dun worry people, i wun forget you XD

2008-04-07T20:55:00.000+08:00

THIS PICTURE IS FOR YOU HUNGRY FAGGOTS! HAHAHAHAHAA. home-cooked laksa =D
wine appreciation at the balcony. had nice windy weather at night. so my dad and mom decided to indulge. denise just took a few sips. =D i'm turning 18 this year. REJOICE!

that was yesterday.
today. went out wif him and gor =D. turned abit emotional initially. but everything's fine. for those who think i'm still attatched. no, i'm single -.- anyway, went SHOPPING.. tmr will also go shopping!! i spent abt less than 50 bucks today =D hungry for diva's accessories... long time neva shop lerr. dun shop now, have to wait till next vacation whereby i'll prob turn saggy and old. cant wait for wednesday XD anyway cheerios. =D

2008-04-06T00:20:00.000+08:00

today went to sentosa for prep weekend activity. T.T SO HOT LAH. for the first time i my face scorched red. was like tellin my mom, and she was like damn worried about how my skin will be harmed by those evil UV rays. -.- she was like, "i buy you this mild sunscreen lotion, you better apply it everyday, even when you go to school ah!" right. okay -.- anyway.. got abit tanned XD yay! but i hate my rudolph nose. makes my nose look more bulbous. ANYWAY, got my new specs today.. look nerdy and guai looking =D i think it's not bad. some ppl think it looks weird on me. ah WELL. not as IF I CAN CHANGE IT ANYWAY. LOL.

tahahahahhaha. points at red nose* =D tadahss. hope tmr, it'll be normal -.- christmas is still months away...

2008-04-04T20:56:00.000+08:00

went to school for weekend briefing today. nuthin much. today had some muscle pain due to the massage yesterday. can feel the soreness rippling within my tissues. not to forget, today i wore contacts cuz of my stoopid specs. my eyes din really 'merge' well with the contacts today, so i spent half the day trying to squint here and there and enlarging my eyes to adjust the lenses to a comfortable position. therefore, end up people say i look funny or weird with contacts -.- yeah. and today i just used a hairband to pull back all my hair cuz i cudnt find my clip, and thus i was called some japanses o-ba-san-.- very fun to call me auntie meh -.- okay lor. since so many idiotic guys around are being so straightforward with my looks. fine fine fine. so i did this out of my own enetertainment. HAHAHA.

tadah.. a masterpiece eh? SO CUTE. hope you didnt vomit =D lalalala

2008-04-03T13:42:00.002+08:00

WTF WTF WTF...got bad omen. i have got a seriously bad feeling abt this.

yes my specs BROKE LA. i merely touched it. and it fell off my ear. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. okay enough screaming. ISSIT MY GEMS. nonono, must not scare thy self!! LOL. i changed it anyway -.- anyway it's time to change specs =D right?
my only consolation.-.- it was damn delicious =D bwahaha. did i mention my dad read some of my sms today. damn pissed.

before i forget. these are the remaining photos from the IT fair.
me and colleague eric, who's also from SP =D
me and the thin yet pretty ferlyn =) did i mention some ang moh guy approached her saying he wanted her hp number so that he could contact her about the products we were selling, giving excuses like it was hard to move from one spot to another in this crowded place. sounds fishy right? some bullshit. HAHA. his intention was to invite her to wine and dine. -.- she kinda deleted the msg coz she had a bf already. but the evil me told her, just go out once, grab his $$, ask him to buy an i mac and give it to me, then you can dump him for all i care =D shit. evil side exposed O.O

2008-04-02T23:35:00.000+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE.. i was back 2 days ago.. will tell you more abt FOC on some other post yeah? since i have no photos. but the VERY VERY SAD THING was that on first day of OC camp(before prep camp), i KENNA STOMACH FLU.. then i painfully vomitted everything i ate at the expensive restaurant. WASTED. shit lor. then i lao sai sumore. btw, my name was MADPIE in camp. so yeah. dun laugh. -.- what am i supposed to put.. lao sai queen? anyway shall update abit.

day after FO break camp, woke up arnd 1 am XD still groggy.. budden after my dad asked me whether wan go eat lunch at copthorne hotel cuz he got vouchers, i got ecstatic. ok. exaggeration. but my engine got more revamped. went there to eat some super expensive nasi goreng and burger cuz buffet was over -.- so not worth it. but IT WAS DAMN DELICIOUS LA. cannot find in any hawker centre or fast food restaurant okay! the patti was juicy and the nasi goreng was fried with just the right amount of heat and an array of fresh ingredients. fragrant and bloody intruiging. (seems like my every post also got food!) anyway, went back and snored like a pig. again.

i got bloody bored after i woke up. so i decided to advertise my darling camera with my self-obsessed pictures. i cudnt think of some better tag. so i had 'denise loves you' on it -.-

2nd april.
basically i went to school for some weekend gl training. then played some badminton with yih dar, kelv, hao jie, sam, ivan, g.l, julian. the whole thing was friggin funny. anyway moves on to the night event which is xinfony VIII. some band concert from my sec schl. wanted to see my junior badly so i went -.- almost slept abit. cant stand symphonies, they are like lullabies to me. pictures!

making up! p.s cannot buy me camera sia, i will keep using it to take myself -.-
how messy things were during make-up.

tadah! the end-product. cant really see o.Ofull length! clad in outfit and ready to go!
RUSKY AND MEEE!!!my dad was very proud of his yellow flowers. so me and rusky posed beside it.
herbal chicken soup for dinner!me and him on the bridge. he still cant smile properly in frnt of a cam haha.in victoria theatre hall awaiting the start of the concert.we took like 10 retarded photos cox that huiting is so VAIN! XD so we kept re-taking HAHA. jkjk. later she whack me. this was one of the best i think o.Ofullerton at night. so beautiful!!
never seen before footage: denise taking off her contacts while holding a cam. i just wanted to see how spastic i look doing that. no, i am not pointing middle finger.one with contacts, the other wif specs. no wonder people say i look different. i look so auntie-ish LOL. well hu cares ^^ =D anyway signs off. tired le la. see you again.

2008-03-24T00:21:00.000+08:00

one post before i go for camp the next day. have to report at 10am -.- but i just realised smth unfortunate. I HAVE NO BLOODY SLEEPING BAG. WTF. AHHHH~ going mad. just finished packing my stuff. left with some minor stuff plus the SLEEPING BAG. tml gotta rush and go buy else i have to make the floor my humble mattress. -.- which i think when i wake up in the morning, i'll probably be blue black and covered with filthy dust. anyway spent like more than half an hour fixing the chunk of jewellery bought from accessorize. shud have brought it back the first time it broke. BLOODY CHUNKY NECKLACE. pendants keep falling from it. and i have to painstakingly use my already-near-sighted eyes and my fat fingers to struggle the chain hole into the stupid ridiculously small diameter of a hoop. all using a handy pair of scissors ^^ i successfully repaired it =D

anyway had a super extravagant dinner. went to this expensive restaurant which my mom was rather reluctant to go cox it was pricey. all thanks to the dinner vouchers sent to my dad cox of his birthday, that's why we ended up HERE. it was damn delicious. lovely french cuisine at au jardin(ojourdein) located inside the botanical gardens. had a nice evening walk through. found out we went the wrong way, then we had to turn back to the restaurant. have some pictures =D saw some filthy rich people. the whole restaurant had a beautiful ambience despite thie atmosphere of elitism, which i particularly dislike.

me on the way and in the car =D car was moving so picture is blurrr.taking a walk in botanical gardensmummy and daddy posing. I TOOK THE PICTURE. LALALALAthis flower which i have no clue what it's name is. i was just told by my green-fingered dad that it smelt very nice, and it was used for cooking rojak o_Ounderage drinking XD i took a small "sip" only. cant be having hangover when i go for camp right -.- i always steal my dad's alcohol drinks. no, i'm not an alcoholic.dad happily smiling with his champagne! (which i also took a "sip" of) =Dme, waiting for my dish to come and thus got bored so i took a shot of myself.me and mommy.the entree. i had bamboo clam. dad had some asparagus. mom had OYSTERSSS..!! 5 starsi had lobster. dad had australian lamb with delicate truffle sauce. mom had dunnoe wad. LOL anyway ALL TASTED DELICIOUS. therefore 5 stars XDlastly dessert. i had warm choco, while mom had mango soup and dad had an assortment of sorbets. tasted their chef's chocolates and pastreis in the middle. it's awesome. 5 STARS!! i didnt gain any weight luckily.. but if i did then.. during camp will lose lor ^^ havent had such a dinner for long. grateful to parents that i can enjoy such privilledge though i'm charged with repayment when they get old XD haha.

did i mention i saw some rich dudes. my gawd. i think i was the most casual girl in there HAHA. mom kept pressuring me to eat gracefully. dun really care. rebutted her by saying as if those people will remember my face, i come here to eat and not to be some pretty elegant girl. i got observe some basic rules wadddd. there's no sin in trying to finish up the scraps of meat and sauce, rather than leaving them there just because you wanna look glam. stupid sia. saw some bitchy wife of a millionaire recently featured in th newspaper coz she assaulted another girl out of jealousy. stupid woman. =D anyway off topic. shall go rest le. tata +D

2008-03-21T00:51:00.000+08:00

as you know from your dogeared calendar that thursday is the day. i guess you people would know what happened today. emotional but a rather peaceful and pleasant ending. was better than i expected. shall not emphasize too much on it.

i feel grateful to have met you.

spaghetti with scrambled egg =)

1 year 5 months. end~

2008-03-18T00:55:00.001+08:00

firstly. lots of peeps to thank. especially the lot of you support me. that's one thing that i feel very grateful for. =) you've been my listening ears and u've been a shoulder. anyway didnt let this drag down my focus on enrollment. maybe abit lah LOL.. tend to space out alot today like some goondoo cause i felt damn worn out from yesterday. somehow guilt just clings to you like some merciless chain. the weight felt kinda heavy but i guess work at enrollment kinda diverted my attention away from it. i'm not running away. i was told not to blame myself but i guess i cant really help it. asking"what can i do to make you feel better?" was the most absurd question you could ask after initiating a ____. i feel stupid. ah wells. felt better today cause i got alot of comforting smiles from others. and also because i managed to have a hearty dinner with dear jose!! XD love her loads! some pictures we took. we focused on the super sinful meal of fried mars bars. MY GAWD. IT IS DAM DELICIOUS LA... faints* XD advice: whenever you're feelin down, just savour some sinful treat of sugar and melts. if that doesnt make you crack a smile... u're just an agonized old trout. HAHA. of course the price that comes with it is the additional unwanted carbs which leads to increase in weight. =/ after how i managed to lose some pounds T.T but it was worth it. me and jose were like...aiyah already here liao so might as well treat oursleves. the promise made that night was: after her A levels(which i wish her all the best), we are so gonna indulge in this sweet delicacy again. XD eating once every half a year makes it sound less sinful HAHA. anyway the place we ate at is new york. we even ate cotton candy lor. didnt go for kerwin's bdae partee at fish and co today, cox i was just informed today and i already arranged to meet jose for dinner to erase some emo feelings. felt much better after dinner. had to thank jose so much. got scolded by mom and dad too. think i not accompanying them enuff due to cca. budden they keep accusing me of going out when i only went out like 4/5 times this whole holiday? bit unreasonable. then sumore overslept in train today. sian diao..kenna scolded again. ah well. denise dun care. photo time =D

half eaten fried mars bars XD and strawberry ice cream on waffle biscuit. the ice cream din melt dat fast. so it was awesome. 5stars!
Check out the oozing caramel. DAMN FRIGGIN RICH AH! my gawd.... somemore got sundae chocolate sauce lor. what was i thinking T.T
me about to eat the sinful thing. 0.o
joselyn happily eating her fried mars bar!
basically. that's all. have some extra photos too though. =)

candid photo. left to right: xiao K.T, orang utan, and moon kian. they wanted candid photo. so this is it -.-

my beautiful enrollment room. XD one of the BEST ROOMS. and its all thanks to the cs club members who came down to help and deco!! such lovely romantic lights ahhh~ who cares about dimness. it's all about atmosphere. ahahha. wadeva.

2008-03-15T21:32:00.001+08:00

damn sad now. i think it was a damn selfish decision also. slaps self* been crying buckets. but the funny thing is that i was the one who asked for it. found that i cudnt commit myself to the role and mostly because of me, i have hurt both myself and him. cant believe he said i had been a good gf till now, cox i always thought i was damn shit. will be officially single again after next thursday. wonder how my life wud change without him. starting to miss him badly. probably some of you think i must have been an idiot to let go of a person who loved me so much, ya i noe, u can smack me if u want to.

it so happened that today's date was the best. you held my hand almost everytime without hints. you rushed down like mad to meet me even though the meeting time was later than that. you offered to accompany me home upon own initiative. lately you waited for me to come online instead of dota-ing. i dont know if i had made the wrong choice ornot. but i just know my heart feels so friggin heavy and almost bursting into splinters. maybe its the lethargy coming over me. i feel so suffocated. someone please save me...

thank you for being my pillar and my pillow.
thank you for loving me. i'm just so sorry =(
feeling emo...

2008-03-13T23:06:00.000+08:00

its been like 4 days have passed since my work at IT show ended. so as promised, gonna say smth abt it lor. XD now that i think abt it, i forgot to take picture with xiu juan. lately haven blogged cox I WAS DAMN BUSY. enrollment things piling up but since i've got so many great people who put in lotsa effort..everything turned out fine.. TOTALLY LOVE MY ENROLLMENT ROOM. who say ugly, i smack u. LOL jkjkjk!! anyway this year is space theme. bought some damn pretty lights from ikea. THEY WERE CHEAAAAP! love em'! kelvin was like saying he wanted to buy some and put in his room. i have no comments =) thanks to daphne, managed to find a string of purple stars! THE LAST SET SOMEMORE OMGAWD LAAA. it's like we're meant to buy it! the white stars were outta stock. now the room is abit disco space. kinda cool XD still rmb that day, that malcolm say i act healthy -_- just becase i ate salad for dinner. so rubbish. LOL. okay back to main POINT-IT fair. here are some photos! me after work. looking less shag than DURING WORK. acer booth is behind. yes, i sell monitors and i wear cheapo shirts provided by the company. my hair covered the logo so yeah~
i watched this like 100 times during the whole bloody IT show. first time see, it was kinda interesting cox it was demonstrating how to make ice cream. This caused me to have hunger spasms recurring in my stomach and exploding desire for gelare ice cream! the way the person scoops the ice cream is kinda professional. o_O budden watching it 100 times just brings earth to you. -_- reality is so depressing...
a picture showing boring customers who just love to stay after closing time. they better pay extra for O.T. anyway picture proves that the It show is a paper litter hell. and that the ratio rubbish to people is 1000:1 respectively.
ANOTHER proof of incosiderate consumers. and look at the dustbin. it's bloody empty. is it that hard to miss a fat dustbin or people just love to decor the surroundings of it. either or, a dustbin made out of a box belonging to that cheapskate brand was to cheapskate to throw their rubbish in.
was standing in front of the lift and was damn bored cox the lift was always ridiculously full. then this caught my eye. A camera that looks 3D and popped up although its on some banner. the effect is kinda cool XD except for the extra guy behind-_-

anyway basically, that's all i have. actually got some with my colleague de, but he say not free, gimme next week only.. so okay lor.

EXTRA PHOTO: taken during enrollment. apparently stupid choo min saw me at mac, and i was in a hurry to go back to enrollment room so i didnt realise her insignificant existene but she had to call me LOL. so i demanded where she was and met her. and this was taken =) wonderful.

2008-03-12T01:42:00.000+08:00

feeling rotten. cause i told him how i really felt. how this was drifting apart. this problem was my fault anyways. with such rough waters and distractions, it's hard not to feel this way. i'm so sorry i feel this way. it hurts to hear you upset. don't shed tears for an undeserving girl like me. because i'd rather break my own heart than break yours. sorry.

love, denise.

2008-03-08T23:27:00.001+08:00

my gawd stupid lagger blog.. oh well. aniewaex yesterday was DADDY'S BDAE WHEE~ after a depressing and tiring and painful and boring and ridiculous day of work at the IT fair, left around 7 plus to go meet my parents at clarke quay, leaving xiujuan to work by herself HAHA. oops =x but she was okay .. she even said i damn nice when i smsed her to ask her if she has reached hoem safely. point proven: i am such a goooooood friend.. =D heheheheh. even my colleague said so.. i have "hao ren" written all over my face. talking about praises, there was this indian customer hu asked me whether i was from poly. i was like o_O why you think so lei? den he answered cox you are a very cleeeevvvveeerrr giiirrrll XD happy happy. got other customers who commented the same thing too. haha denise the formidable sales person. lets have one minute of silence to worship this girl. okay just kidding. if i continue to sing somemore praises of myself, think people are gonna sue me for wasting their time reading this paragraph.
anyway went to tomton(some japanese restaurant) which is FREAKING DELICIOUS. warning: pictures shown may cause you all to wet yourself with drool!! i have finally fulfilled my atrocious desire for SASHIMIIIIIII. i'm nuts...HAHAHAHAHA. picture time XD
shabu shabu! place the pork in the soup and cook it to 80% XD
I LOVE SOFT SHELLL CRABBBBBBB!!!
me and daddy!
me and mommy!
me and my hokkaido ice cream!! double scoop-sea salt caramel and green tea!!
SALAD.. TASTY TASTY SALAD.. OOOIIIISHHII!!
EVERYONE I AM PLEASED TO ANNOUNCE I HAVE EATEN SASHIMIIIIIII!!
eating another cute salad!!! yumyumyum.
dipping the 80% cooked pork into the shabu shabu sauce XD NICEEE!!
DELICIOUS PORK CUTLETTTT..... AAAAHHHHHH~~ FAINT*
okay.. i bet you're jealous now XD BLEAHS...oh well burp* damn! i feel like a pig -_- anyway dat's all.. luv u ppl mwaahhhss..

2008-03-07T00:09:00.004+08:00

wah my leg is si bei PAIN... all for wad? $$$ -_- evil thing hor.zzZ oh wells.. saw some familiar people todae at the IT fair. saw jin ru.. she's like working under the same IT company but different retailer. HAHA. then i saw song pei and his mama. rushed down from school to suntec, entrusting the props job to my trusty friends at club. rushed down wif xiujuan to find that the passage from citylink mall has BEEN CLOSED. WTH. make me detour one stupid round. anyway finally reached the IT mall.. didnt see many sexy models today even though LG booth was like in front of us.. remember last time they hired some super hot babes to pose with their lappies and all those chi ko peh came swarming with their super mega pixelled camera to get high quality shots up-close. seems like acer's t-shirts are becoming cheaper every IT fair -_- which is plain ridiculous. well cant blame the absurd cheapo prices of their products that lead to sucky shirts made out of recycled cloth for their sales personnels. tomorrow is daddy's bdae XD whee.. leaving work earlier XD KYAHHHOOO. oh yah got quite offended by some obesed uncle. stupid rude fart. if i'm blocking the monitors then SAY SOMETHING LA u hamburger -.- u think ur insignificant head action restricted by your triple chin have such impact on me? and when you wanna ask someone to do something, SAY it politely. just because i'm the sales person and i'm younger doesnt mean i shudnt earn that same respect you balding toot. arrogant old man. think you high society flyer ah? you're not even buying, you're just a companion. well here's some advice from the third generation...GO FLY KITE LA. been too critical liao OOPS =x hate arrogant balding old man*

i think i gaining back weight liao SHIT. should cut down on the sugar intake. OH YAH.. my dad finally bought a new digi cam.. sleek gorgeous black..oooh yeah =P happy happy! cant wait for tomorrow evening wheeeeeeeeeeee. anyways updated pictures from d&d.. will show u IT fair pics tomorrow. haha

me and the very cute irene( i think she looks damn cute with straight hair haha) this makes me sound so pedophile can? LOL.
me and moon kian.. HE TIPTOED HAHA.
my hair looks as if it has been bombed by some north korean nuclear missile.
my blue claws XD with abit of gold art=D happy happy.
this is total randomness but i cudnt stop laughing at it. PROOF THAT elijah and sam are FAGGOTS. HAHAHAHHA. cheese!

that's all.. kisses =D mwahssss~

2008-03-06T00:58:00.001+08:00

This is nuts.. either i'm being psychoed by my nagging friends.. or i just felt the urge of revamping my long decomposed blog or probably someone made a voodoo denise to make her blog. o_O the previous post is on my 1 year anniversary with him. this is nuts. LOL and it's like march now -_- that's like so LOOOOONNNGG.. i just looked at my hit counter and i'm more than surprised, in fact what's that word..flabberghasted? LOL. anyways had some great time during the holidays and CNY. holiday now kenna preoccupied by FO. it's like triggering a machine gun or smth, after cscc day, another round of painting banner and doing props.. SO SAI GANG. never mind denise.. you are a strong-willed person except you may just go on some manslaughter or arson at this l****** company that prints shirts. I'M NOT SOMEONE WHO YOU CAN MESS WITH, u jfjajfhkjaf! (incorrigible word) if it isnt representing my club, i'll probably have nailed the fella 10 feet down. tomorrow gotta work. WHY? cause i need money for my doll obsession. LOL. i'm crazy to invest in such intricate product. what to do? i'm nuts. anyway to him: heck care your parents lah..ignorance is bliss! XD smile kaex? anyway wanna cheer for my enrollment team and my lovely friends who stay back to help. omigosh love you people! anyway here are some pictures. i swear i lost weight but i guess i'm just plain non-photogenic. hahaha. cscc day photos which i grabbed. was the unglam emcee for the night-.-

me and huisan!
me and jane!
me and xueli!
the valentine's day gift i made for my parents =D
i swear i look thinner here LOL. me and bangla girlfren, yuping!

my birthday gifts from him haha. no valentines day present photo haha. cox I DIN TAKE LOR. end of pictures.. will find more of the cscc day pictures and updates. oh wait. din put any cny pictures. aiyah lazy lah-_- oh yah.. choo min, u silly pig! when u wanna watch juno? elijah and company when you wanna go out? korkor and gang.. when you all wan go out also??!! AHHHH~ busy busy! oh yah. just found 2 other friends who smoke =( don't smoke kiex? bad for health sia and air pollution! try to reduce the sticks and give it up yeah? =) anyway...i'm bloody bored so i shall go play maple! so my dear darlings.. sayonara.. till then. oh yah will show you peeps the ball jointed doll i am aiming to buy! call me crazy or wad nort. I'M SO BUYING IT!

2007-10-09T20:26:00.001+08:00

guess i'm pretty much back to my normal self at school. still wander into space alot at home lolx. just cried abit when i got reminded by my maid how she used to mess up the whole place while eating and how she tried to snatch her squeaky toy from me while playing "soccer" when i saw it lying round the garden. tried squeakin it, but dun think she'll come and get it again. oh well, still trying to adapt to life without her. sigh*. still wanna thank those ppl hu gave me encouragement though =) love you peeps =)
doing some character development thingie now -.- so last minute can?! budden think we'll do a good job lah =) i'm supposed to do stories ahahahaha. shall add an experience on wad happened lately as a dedication to you great friends XD.
still craving for sashimii. and prata sausage. lalalala~

happy 1 yr anniversary dar haha. supposed to be some days back. but since we went out just 2 days back.. . here's some fotos! sorry i asked for that cox i got too oversensitive on what you said. guess i was reckless in that decision=( all's well now. ha=) aniewae ya...
happ ONE YEAR ANNIVERSARY

2007-10-05T22:43:00.000+08:00

i wanna let her go.
step by step.
i'll have to eventually.
all dogs go to heaven :)
i'll move on like her.
it still aches. but i guess memories will do.
tears dribble abit now and then.
but i guess she's happier now.
that's why i wanna let her... go

love my friends. they're the GREATEST bunch of peeps. everyone needs friends, cox this place would feel so meaningless without them.( side-trackin abit but sumone shud also try to cherish ppl arnd him, instead of trying to win everything alone.)
wanna send my heart-felt BIG FAT thank yous to these ppl hu were my pillar of support, ppl hu felt alongside with me. if i'm not touched, i must be the lousiest friend in the whole world. oh shucks, i cudnt control my tears then when i recieved the card lah >< oh man, so embarrassing can?!! LOL. and i tot the card was for elijah's bdae or smth when i saw it-.- now i rmb his bdae is over-.- lolx
anyway thank you:
weijie dar
derrick gorgor
peggy
chen shyan
connie
elijah
wee siong
kang li
jen kaen
samuel
kuo qiang

just wanna say i got stronger because of you people. thank you so much.

2007-10-05T00:39:00.000+08:00

when you love someone, love it with all your heart.

there are 2 things that can never be taken back- time and life.

this post is dedicated to the my late friend: viki

rest in peace and i will never forget you and will love you till the end of time.

i cannot hear your barking anymore
i cannot feel or stroke your fur anymore
i cannot feel your breath anymore
i cannot play with you anymore
i cannot treat u with food anymore
i cannot feed u coconut anymore
i cannot shake your paw anymore

yes i miss her. but i've got to let her go. it takes that much courage to admit that she's gone. it takes that much tears to get over it. i wasnt there with you when you breathed your last. but i know you went peacefully, and i feel so happy with you all these years. thank you so much.

i wish i could have spent more time with you
i wish i had known.
i wish i had the courage to accompany you to the vet
i wish...

feel like i just lost a member of my family. feel like i just lost a best friend and companion. feels like...my heart just broke into splinters. feel like my body's dehydrated from the river of tears i just cried.

i see your brush with strands of your fur. you used to love being brushed.
i see your leather leash. you used to jump excitedly when you see it.
i see you bowl. you used to gobble lots of food from it.

if i can shout to the ends of earth. i wanna say thank you all these years. you took care of me like a friend, like family. these heart strings will never be cut. so long my friend. adieus~

if heaven please, hear my plea, take care of her for eternity~

denise.

2007-09-09T23:49:00.000+08:00

went for primer's event yesterday. played food junction. I SWEAR i have neva gobbled down so much food at one go sia. lemme say this too: HAVE U EVER SEEN SUCH GREEEEEEN FOOD. well i have, its CALLED LEI CHA FAN. omg la. the soup was some mint tea that u're supposed to gobble wif the plain rice, ikan bilis, mixed herbal veggie. nutritious but disgusting. EEEEEYYUCk. i cannot imagine how the ppl manage to swallow it. my gawd -.- den wad else did i eat: almond choco, pork bun, tau huey, ice cream ,yoghurt, durian, peas, etc etc etc. sian lor, everything mixed in my stomach! i went to lao sai in some stray gent's toilet cubicle. dam stink eh. -.- when we finally finished everything and were on our way back, when one girl fainted. horrors. wa really hope she okay sia. she was very weak after that. but all's well now.

today went out to eat xiao long bao, come bak write compo for creative writing competition, hoping to earn some extra pocket money out of it $$$ XD. tml gng for chalet yey! hope will haf fun =D

2007-09-08T00:21:00.000+08:00

woke up like at 6 am today -_- (SOOOO EARLLLY NIA) i like forgot the previous nite cox i was happily indulging in my anime. (its like some damn friggin addictive drug that causes your heart to palpitate wildly) whee~ XD decided to pon badminton training for this since i already promised that i wud go -.- cox i kinda din see the "wed AND FRI" in the sms my captain sent me. alamakx. ah well, i'll make up for it next wed, so i'm gng for LTC one day late.

went to ling kwang home. handled the wheelchair for the first, i swear i was sweating cold sweat everytime i manouvered the old lady on the wheel chair DOWN a slope. CAN U IMAGINE IF I TRIPPED , AND THE WHEELCHAIR GOES...... U KNOW WHAT.

the visit was kinda eye opener, the old lady i handled was really nice! she had stroke in one of her arms so she carn move it ><. if sympathy doesnt grow in ur heart, u're probably some glacier stone. yeah~

interacted with some of the old peeps, some didnt want to open up to accept our company. i got hit on the hand by one la

enjoyed playing ball with some of the old peeps there during physio although i ended up with a backache cox i need bend down so many times to equal my height to the height of the wheelchair o.o i find old peep's smile harbours some warm melting feeling. when u finally pry a smile between their lips, u'll feel that backache is so worth it HAHAHA. ah wells. had fun. most amazed at the fortune telling by one old lady. whoa.

here's some piccies i took:
top: me and jin ru below frm left: xinfang, wei min, janice :) some of the residents in the multi-purpose hall.
and after that, i went home like some sleepy dork.
tml is someone's BIG DAY.. i wonder =)

2007-09-05T00:05:00.000+08:00

WAH TODAY IS LIKE SO DAMN TIRING but STILL FUN. cox of all the sudden change of plans and stuff. worst thing was dat THERE WAS NO LUNCH. it was like the first big demolishing process on my head. ow. i came without breakfast, and NO LUNCH!!? but after dat duhnoe why i wasnt that hungry aniemore. ALmost the first half of the programme was like shifted to and fro, changed here and there. big headache for my volunteers too. my oc and me had to come up with ideas pretty fast to match the pace of the programme schedule. really pity those taking care of the p5 p6 group cox they're kinda hard to handle. ><

WANNA SEND a whole LOT of thank yous
to my OC, without you guys, i'll be a dead long goner. thank you kuo qiang and jun wei too for being such great advisors, else i wud be so LOST in the proposals and order of planning. and also MY VOLUNTEERS XD who made this programme something happenin =D yuppies..thanks ya? =D hahax

oh yeh, octopus has some lower back pain, hope ya feelin okaysss =D i suggest accupuncture. balance some yin and yang. yeah? or u can start pasting those plaster on ur back whee~

2007-09-02T11:46:00.000+08:00

ITS 2nd of SEPTEMBER
YEAH~ whoohoo. checked out my hair this morning. think it din even grow an inch -.- WHY ISSIT GROWING SO DAM SLOW... not fair sia. last time when i neva layer and stuff, my stupid hair grew like turf grass. well at least my hair's getting straighter which is the only significant change. well, its not good or bad, but my perm's gone so fast HAHA. think the hair is tooo straight.. well that's a compliment XD hurhur~ hope it'll grow longer and longer and longer and longer and longer =D then i can go SNIP it and style it my way XD

AH WELL. 2/9/07. seems like time just zooms past everytime. when i'm reminiscing in the sweet and bitter memories back then, it feels like we just started dating last week or smth o.o well anyways.. happy 11 month anniversary. we're reaching a year =D carn meet u today, think u're at church now or smth haha. think i'm a rather petty girlfren hu just lets off steam anyhow, =x i don't know how to be a perfect girlfriend nor do i know how to be understanding at all times. but aniewaes.. guess we're still going on strong. =)

i just love glitter xD

Thank you darl for these loving 11 months =D
thank you for being there in many ways.
thank you for still cheering me up when you're hurt.
thank you for so so much more =D (cox if i continue, ppl will give me the mush alert HAHA.)

no matter the distance, time... this feeling will stay on =D

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful baby

celine dion-because you loved me

2007-09-01T00:54:00.000+08:00

okay wads there today? 402 class outing =D wonder-ous.

woke up at 10 am today and rushed back to xinmin to meet that late bugger queen- miss choo min. take a good look at her. =) THIS WOMAN... always wears that "once a saint, always a saint" shirt, and she is FOREVER the same. well at least till now. she's still the same ole crappy nonsensical good friend of mine hahahax.

THIS- is not taken by me, but by the "great" CHOO MIN herself.. omg so zilian la. its no surprise almost everyone recognizes her at xinmin even though the long hair and the funny specs she don on were the only different changes moulded onto her face. foreva love~ your ever spastic and funny choo min. i'll intro any of you interested guys to her if u wan..^^

we were kinda taking foto, but si bei and ying jie wanted to push the balloon to cover choo's face, so she wanted to bloCK IT AHHA.

went to visit various old teachers from xms. long time no see =D i almost cudnt rmb all the teachers there, but everywhere brings back that nostalgic feeling, and looking back just summons all those crazy old memories back =D i rmb how i used to copy homework before maths class cox there was JUST SO MUCH to do, and so little time. i rmb i kept being asked to stand in bio class cox i almsot explored into dreamland. lalala=D i remember beatin up choo min with joselyn and yilin. ah so on. HAHAHA.

ah well. met junior POLKA DOTS XD hope she's dng fine. din manage to meet mei( huiting) cox she had to go sumwhere and she din hear my calls. =( ah well i still have a promised movie date with her =D

she kinda closed her eyes. -.- but she said its alright. =D i miss you dear polka, all the best in sec 3 =D oh yayayaya.. this was wad i saw in xms. some utility bill banner. that's L-A-M-E. u shudnt waste money on such things you know -.- and smth proud to note!! =D our year had the boomin highest utility bill! AWW~ its the orange bar for your info XD

after we left xms, went to hougang mall and ate lunchie cox i was so HUNGRRRRYYY. =D shared my chawan mushi with jose and choochoo. yumyum =D den we went to shop arnd. i bought a retro hairband that i've been wanting for so LONNNG~ and a pair of starry earings =D wanted to buy that dice necklace, budden decided to save $$$.

U. YES YOU CAN HELP DENISE. BY DONATING TO HER FUND. do not hesitate to leave a tag and book an appointment for donation transaction to occur. terms and conditions apply.

went to AMK hub after that, by the time we reached it was like 4.30 liao. TIME PASS SO FAST SIA. five of us( sibei, yingjie, jose, me and choo) din even feel the time ticking away =D went up to cathay to see wad movie available, went to meet yilin and ming hui and sat at some alley near cathay. bad thing was the security guard saw us and chased us away. then some hwa chong jc couple came by and sat. we were laughing our asses off, when he security guard came and chased them away HAHAHAHAHA... SO FUNNY. ah well, went ot foodcourt den took this spastic foto HAHAH. i was laughing like some loose lunatic.

GOTCHA UP UR NOSE HOLES XDD your left to right: jose, me, choo XD

dez and zhen xiang came along and they tried to take a foto of dez.. but someone had to force her way into the picture HAHHA.

DUN SO SHY LAAAAAHHH DESMOND!~. hey wait! hus dat at the left corner of the pic??! LOL.

went to find the other guys of 402'06 but decided we were too full to have dinner. so we went to vid deck and play POLAR BEAR AND MURDERER. oh man~ embarrassin sia. why izzit dat we always play these games every class gathering -.- lmao. ah well.. ppl hu wanna get the pictures i took from todae can ask from me to send. XD lazy to put on blog lahsss.. hafta keep shifting my text back every upload -.- miss you 402 ppl. =D

meet up again some day to play POLAR BEAR AND MURDERER again LMAo.

den stupid choo came to my hse and watched youtube for an hr den she left hahaha. closed for the evening. =)

"It is one of the blessings of old friends that you can afford to be stupid with them."- Ralph Waldo Emerson

this life? i love it when its okay =)

got lotsa stuff to do =)-club meetings/badminton trainings/club camps/finding fun and love. ah wells, i'll still find a way to be myself each and every single day. foreva- denise. =D

2007-08-30T21:12:00.000+08:00

THE DCHE/1B/21 CLASS CHALET. wowwee-.-

i have enuff of budget. budget is a vulgar word. budget is an evil word. b-u-d-g-e-t means getting something cheap that is worth its quality. which simply means budget=lousy

i just came back from a chalet located in some ulu location, with a haunted building looming with some freaky aura opposite us. they said its part of old changi hospital. day 1 has a red moon. aww sucks. it's 7th month too. everyone got freaked out. and ya. some freaky stuff happened. like some guy dressed in white shirt was tapping on the kitchen toilet window and when the guy's squad was sent out to capture him, they din noe where he went to. all i know was that guy ran dam fast? aniewae bbq was quite a disaster until around nearing midnight whereby better quality charcoals were fetched and the fire finally started up. me and connie decided to improvise by frying while waiting. we carn cook but its a GOOD idea -.- HAHA. our chefs: chen shyan and elijah. the chicken was not too bad though. HAHA.

smokin hot: we just added abit of magarine to the pot(coz no oil), and we got SMOKE XD interesting -.-

DAY 2: most of them left. yup. sadded. left 7 ppl haha. so elijah, chen shyan and peggy decided to rent dvds =D while me and naziah and xiu juan stayed at the chalet and played sucky football on the ps2 -.-, den dynasty warriors. we were literally ROTTI'N. when we finally decided to lift our butts to the sososo far away reception and eventually reached there. we realised we could have just called and asked them to deliver the dvd player to the chalet -.- sian~ went up the flight of steps leading to the main building of old changi hospital with both of them after that. we stood at the entrance and saw a couple of stupid spray paintings on the walls. the entrance looked freaky enuff with all the cluttered mess arnd. well it was broad daylight but still din wanna go in coz we are 3 ppl, all girls, and we aint prepared. peg, elijah, chen shyan finally returned and we started watching dodgeball, which showed some man's skinny tard ass which elijah went googlie over.( oh yah's elijah, when is ur wedding with wee siong?! i cant wait to be the bride's maid in a kopitiam?) HA.

we love CHEESE biscuits: cox we're famished. naziah was like " I'M HUNGRY" every 10 or so minutes. pizza was like eternity.cute-ness: acting cute with ms claire! HAHA.

Beggar's pizza: spot MY HAND. yes its the one abt to take the s'pore pizza. yummy =D we were so like scavengers then. yeah man~

the evidence: oh crapness~ XD yes! elijahs the toot-paste victim. AND I'M THE PRANKER. WOOTS~ this is so FUN. the most fun thing in this budget chalet. XD

the end product: SQUEEZEEEEEE~
denise says: heeehee~ success!
elijah says: snore~
and then i left after watching crime watch and xiujuan's U.F.O(dreamz fm).

PPL WAD WERE U EXPECTING? this is wad u get from budget chalet. how exciting.

2007-08-28T00:02:00.000+08:00

ha. its few minutes pass midnight. its 28th august le RAHAHa. means in 15 more hrs, i'll be dragging my ass to the chalet HAHA. watch out ppl, activities comm of 1B/21- samuel, denise(ME), chen shyan, elijah are so gonna rock you out. XD tahahaha. one word: BEWARE sums up the activities comm motto XD haaa~ yawn. i got nth to post abt today's event except me travelling all the way to SP to do some club thing for my event, then travelling back like a squashed tomato in the train. typical "denise" life. wad WERE YOU EXPECTING... some jame's bond movie? wish i was smth like that Charlize Theron in AEon Flux and kick some bad sic-fi ass. WhACK-A-BOOM XD spectacular! ah well, see~! another typical "denise" daydream. i must be bored to tears. well, denise doesnt blog much abt him, so maybe she'll blog abt him today. =D

i'm thinkin of sumone =) haven seen him like in a century- its figurative. BUT i really haven seen him like in months, not counting those short time meetings like just saying hi, how's ur day face-to-face kind of meetings -.- blame it on his strict 5.30pm clock out timing which makes it so difficult to meet him, and blame it on the stupid MRT track that makes it so long for me to travel from the middle to one end of singapore. ah well. missing you. even though we had so many problems surfacing suddenly. often ends up kinda bad, but glad everything's alright now. peace ^^ guess lotsa stuff surfaced cox of my stormy mood and mind-wrecking worry that i had due to that "thing". but i felt so much better after we had a date on saturday. you told me something that i really needed to hear so so so much in order to abate the raging emotions brewin in me heart.

thank you =)

cause i felt so touched by that sentence...

cause i felt i wasnt alone.....

cause i felt i was really teasured.

cause i felt i was really loved =D

and because of that, i'm happy that i'm with you. and all those quarrels, they all make it worth it, cox it shows that someone as petty and sour as me can still be loved =)

i wanna let you noe you're the best thing that ever happened to me. =)

they say " love can make the world go round", and i know why... cause it never feels better to know someone will always be there for you, no matter the distance and time =D

2007-08-26T16:51:00.000+08:00

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HARHAR. awesome XD.

yep this bLOG IS SO REVivED.

okok seriously EXAMS ARE OVERRRRRrr... ahahaha. so long sucky papers. hate ya.

anyway i feel that i really shud thank these people from the bottom of my heart for givin me the extra oil i needed to leap through the night even though i still sucked very much while answerin the questions XD

1. Samuel: thankya sister a.k.a asshole. LOL. for helping me jia you when i was abt to break down at the huge remaining chapters grinning at me from the microbio book. din expect the nick part. thankew thankew. XD err but no thanks for the million punches u gave me though. -.-

2. Elijah: hello erm sister a.k.a fishhead or better known as the s.h.i.t ^^ jkjk. thanks for teaching me the bloody calculus( u noe...that green, fat, oxford dictionary-lookin book that has two spastic cycling losers on the cover) on the train. HAHA. i thought i was like totally gonna die and choke on my anti-math breaths. raah~ and thanks for accompanying me to do the last minutes revision in T4 before the launch of the sucky paper. XD

3. LA-JI-TONG: comprising connie and chen shyan. thankew for givin me some entertainment during the exams eg. CONNIE's theory and chen shyan's forever " 24th aug is comin" lmao! the best part is that join hand cheer that we did after the stupid microbio paper. AWW~ it totally signalled the end of e-x-a-m-s.

u noe wad? i think e-x-a-m is a more forbidden word than that voldemort...u noe, that crappy depressed-looking bald headed villian. yeah that one. err no, i dun mean mr ***...yeah, i noe his balding. =x

4. Jian Wei: Thanks for teaching me calculus -.- hahahha. i noe i interrupted your studyin like in every 10 minute interval. haha paiseh paiseh. aniewae thanks man, u were big help.

5. Wei ming: HA. thanks for being as SLOW as me. well actually i'm slower, but since u always start so late, i'm ahead! thanks for sulking abt exams with me HAHAHA. the early mornings were never so entertaining ever since. thanks ya? hehehe XD

6. darling <3: thankeeeewww~ for always being beside me through those "rainy" days. always sending me encouraging smses and accompanying me till early mornings although u always end up snoring on the other side before i finally chase you to sleep cox u had school the next day... but i really appreciate everything =) aww.. thankew =D

"I no doubt deserved my enemies, but I don't believe I deserved my friends." - Walt Whitman

2007-05-11T23:12:00.000+08:00

DENISE IS SO DARN BORRRREEEDDDD.. just came back form primer's award ceremony... quite fun larh hahha. 2 of me seniors went up, including 3 ex-xinmin seniors LOL. abit "ghey" cox of some aherm.>< -censored- ok aniewae there was this lady in pink. Looks rather oldish, but dresses like the younger generation. Even so, she totally spoiled her image la. she's like some elephant in pink lor.. disgusting. (it's not like i despise ppl of bigger size, which i don cox i noe i'm FAT too.) it's just that her character is so darn weird la. And kinda irritating. It's like those vegetable aunties from the wet market trying to force yourself to splurge on their goods. SHEESH. in this scenario, she was trying to sell herself as a super-sociable "u should know me before you regret" kind of "product", which unfortunately failed to achieve its objective. This was what happened... denise and her GL from camp, joy were returnin to MLT 12 at business block after filling our tummy bags with CUP NOODDIIEESSS. was searching for a place near our camp grp when we entered. What seriously annoyed me was that while me and my senior were trying to think of how to get a place, that pinky girl just blasted out" HEY DO I KNOW YOU?" 2 seconds of silence. feel my heart kicking my chest. thud thud. i was like omfg, did i do smth wrong or wad. wad am i supposed to say? current situation: lost for words.crap. tot she was some kind of officer(cox she looks oldish) so was about to answer her demanding question" erm. no u probably dunnoe me " budden my senior kinda ask me ignore. but pinky continued to babble. DO I KNOW YOU?! i was like wth la?? stop making me drilled into some kind of spot sia. making me look like some dumdum trying to tease ur enquiries. Unfortunate current situiation. we had to sit on the same row as her. lucky i got joy, and not far huishan. wad wud i do without u. oh man~ she was like babbling to joy abt smth, prob smth related to the " DO I KNOW U" matter. it wasnt a matter of time when the attention was drawn to me.
"HER LEH HER LEH??"
me(thinkin): SAVE ME.. C'MON SAVE ME!! HUs THIS KUKU HU KEEPS WAVING SPASTICLY AT ME?!
"HEY DO I KNOW YOU? I DON'T KNOW YOU RIGHT?!"
me(thinkin):I'M NOT YOU, how ON EARTH WUD I NOE WHETHER U NOE ME. MY GAWD.
"I THINK I DUNNOE U.. COME COME. TYPE IN UR CONTACT."(shoves laptop to me)
me(thinkin): KILL ME LA. U SOUND LIKE SOME ADMIN PERSON. SAY PLEASE COME. LADY WHERE'S UR MANNERS. RAHHH~
pause-
senior joy says better not giv, she'll come and ka jiao u.
me: (stares blankly) shit la! i dunnoe wad to do!!
pinky: COME COME!
omg la. i met a retard.
decided i'll just giv my dear name to let her feel HONOURED. din wanna make her feel idiotic saying COMECOME. very nice me decided to put a dash at the hp column( cox u wun noe when she'll call u to have a retard conversation) the most moronic thing was that she snatched the laptop and erased it saying NONO, starts with 9 de not dash. i was like WAD?! HELLO. I DUN THINK I LOOK FOREIGN LA, NEITHER DOES MY ACCENT. AND SOME HP NO. START WITH 8 LOR. roar~ seriously she needs CERTAIN transplant. told her dat i din haf a hp which was an obvious lie. gave her my real e-mail but it's fine cox i can block her anytime if she adds LOL. heard from joy that she usually come for food events, during bbq once kept shamelessly(i assume) asking for food, kinda guo fen. Pinky kept disturbing the MC a few times. MC din wanna look at her LOL, when she tried to ask a question on when "food junction" event will be held. OMG LA. ALL OF US WERE LAUGHING LOR. she dun seem embarrassed in fact. She kept tryin to 'capture' a senior to ask abt when is the food junction thingie, especially poor huishan hu literally ignored her. well she was busy, or maybe just carn bother. after ceremony, camp grp proceeded down to take pics. Our chorus of fun laughter was shattered when pinky approached, asking : CAN I JOIN IN THE PHOTOTAKING. I WAS LIKE THINKING NONONONONONO.. SHOO! i dun mean to be evil but seriously it's obvious that we were taking a camp grp foto and she wanna barge in. It wud be in a noble gas among the halogens(in chemistry terms)or in other words, she wud be dam EXTRA. The camera guy seemed abit annoyed by her appearance and just told her that we taking camp grp foto. cud see everyone feeling so darn relieved. lmao hhahaha. oh wells, meeting this kind of peep is inevitable. haix.. my eyes startin to CLOSE LE. so erm NITES ALL. zbruh sucks la btw. HHAHA shall blog next time abt SUPERCHICKEN. that<<< only ppl from 1B/21 wud noe. LOL. tata all, shant say adieu cox i learned from sharad's french ppt that adieu is farewell to ppl hu u dun wish to see them ever again. LOL.. tatas~

2007-04-25T23:38:00.000+08:00

heh. i know. my blog. is rotting. time to add abit flava. just rmbered the eqp design for a-cash in maple is ending. please support me by ADDING REALLLY NICE AND SWEET COMMENTS. pg 14 and 18 of forum.. will be drawing my last one before entry date close. um. school kinda okay ba lolx. poly kinda happenin. not too long ago got tortured in spsu recruitment drive camp. 4 hrs of sleep in 3 days suck big time. got reduced to a moaning spastic zombie. i will NEVA go for torture camp again please. night walk almost scared the bloody hell outta me. old buildings+pitch dark+ghost story, weans ur appetite for fun and builds a sickenin pit of 'i wanna go home.. LEMME GO HOME' kind of juice in ur stomach. dun get why u need these night walks. ok i mean i get the pt face ur fears. but look at the other side of it la. it can input negative waves into a person lors. giving him/her nightmares is not a stupid laughing joke. night walks are fun if u go tgt as a GROUP. anwx enuff wif that night walk. sum all up. the camp was an equivalent to prisoner 'paradise' oh man. anyway feeling kinda groggy, so i shall turn in for the night. and ciao. bring u guys more pathetic posts soon.

2007-03-21T15:13:00.000+08:00

BECAUSE DENISE IS SOOOOO BOOOORRREEDD.. SHE DECIDES TO WATCH YOUTUBE WHOLE DAY LONG... LALALALAS... so she decided to post some really cute videos XD hope ya like them. First up!!

SO CUTTTE SIA!!.. i like the dog in the fashion outfit and the one skipping LOL
ANOTHER ONE.. i find the song so darn whacky and funy lah!

chorus goes: i'm an ugly girl, my face makes you hurl. said i have it, i should beg it. agne everywhere, unwated facial hair...i'm a relation to Frankenstein's creation.. lmao

2007-03-21T14:54:00.000+08:00

was just thinking of my really kawaii TJ frenz so decided to post these in memory =D especially S.A.D and pomelo and rambutan XDD. really miss my 402 frenz too, din take any pictures much this year.. but i love you ppl! XD

during go-green day, ms liew and liang yeet XD hahax.
from left: AJ, wei ming, nicholas, john, benjimin.
from left: benjimin, liang yeet, SOPHIA(TRYING TO HIDE HAHAHA)
Rachel and Amelia eating canadian 241 pizzas -.- LOL
Sharon and S.A.D!! (sophia and denise) un!ck first intake party LOLOL.

campus superstar finalist, adriano performing at TJ. kinda blurrrrryyyy >(

not to forget, my firt P.E WHICH CAUSED THIS..OMG.. MASS OF RED...... its better now.. but still eeky =(

wanna mention dat when i met my cg frenz again during tehir cg outing to marina sq while i was on the way to work wif my colleague eric to the IT fair at suntec, really felt incredibly happy and shocked too XD miss ya guys XD

2007-03-01T20:22:00.000+08:00

ah. long time since i blog lol. just decided to vent some feeling out here ba. haha. dunnoe why i feel so like a bloody bitch with contradicting feelings. heck with the knotty feelings. zzZ told him how pissed i was todae for making me wait again for nth, that he seemed to neglect my existence. he told me sorry in the cutest messages i've ever seen. but i didnt forgive him, cox that sorry wasnt the first one. i thought, if everything cud be just solved by a word, den in wud be a miracle. he broke a promise. that, i was most pissed. while i was on the verge of tearing my nerves into smithereens, he was happily drunk in his game. i had no one to giv me support that i thought i would have. i felt.. he seemed to care more about that stupid computer game than me. i'm so stupidly jealous. i replied to him a series of harsh words, not the mush kind like " i dun wanna see u", but something ventful though. i was positive that i may cause a heartache but i sent it aniewae, bearing the thought that if i just acted as if it was fine, it would re-happen again and again. he replied me, he regretted sending lame msges that may have made my already bad day worse. i told him it wasnt that, i just cudnt help feel angry. i forgot tml would be our 5th month anniversary... it was embarrassing and pathetic. following messages were in bits and pieces, dunwanna to type out everything. dunnoe why my heart sank even though i was supposed to be angry. for the whole day, just to avoid those spasms of sadness, i concentrated vigourously on lessons, though 1/2 the time i have no friggin idea wad the teacher was dronning. i was still having a heavy heart upon reaching home. no mood to eat, no mood to play games. still finished dinner though. Den i realised i was being pissed at myself for trying too hard, for saying those words... i cudnt differentiate right from wrong... thinking that he'd probably feel awkward to me, and it wud take long to heal, i saw an encouraging msg from him, i din noe how to reply, afraid to reveal a soft side.. ridiculous. hate it when we have these stupid tiffs. alwaes makes me feel like some bitter soggy sock after that. zzZ dunnoe how u'll react by seeing this. honestly, i just feel so no-life -.-

2007-02-15T21:10:00.000+08:00

it's been a long time since i blogged lah =D paiseh pasieh. HEY PPL... WHAZZZUUUUPP!! GUESS WAD..JAE ENDED ON WED 4PM... i am offiicially gng poly. whoopee =D YA. i noe firstly DARING, secondly SIAO, thirdly RISKY... oooOh. aniewae cox u ppl keep asking me which poly, wad course.. get it first hand from the blogger here. Singapore POLY, CHEM engineering(dun be fooled it's 70% phy. i'm mad).. o lvl result WAS MY BIG FAT BLOOODY ANG BAO XD. YEH YEH YEH~ omg so happy larh.. i was like oh no T_T no more 8 pts, cox i din see me pic or name on the presentation. in the end i got 7 pts..lmao. 7 distinctions, 1 B3(physics wa-KAO). not staying in TJ... though the days spent with CG 11/07 were fun u rawk my bananas man =D if u guys wanna noe why i chose poly here are the answers to FAQ.. ya this shud answer ur questions -.-
1) HEY DENISE.. DUN U MISS US? STAY IN TJ LA..
dede the great: yes i will REALLY MISS U GUYS~ even though its 3 mths. the bond is really thick. but i'm sorry =( cox i really think the poly education is wad i really want.

2) WHY U DUN LIKE JC?
dede the great: hey not like i hate it or wad so ever.. it's just dat i'm learning a higher degree of maths and science. i dun like it.

3) WHY POLY?
dede the great: since s'pore's edu system has incorporated me into such a science sucker, i took interest in chem engineering(noe it's gonna be tough and i'm choosing career at 16! O.O) i'm aiming for foreign Uni, and i kinda like the working exp( a VERY VALUABLE ASSET) which can only be gained in poly =D

4) DENISE? U NEVA CHOOSE DESIGN? ( top question)
dede the great: yala -.- walao. u think my choice NEHS? my mom say i cannot survive in that industry la.. wa my heart break sia >(

5) DENISE!!? WHY U HAVEN WITHDRAW FROM JC? U'RE WASTIN TIME!
dede the great: yes! I NOE I NOE! my mom wun let me cox she wan me keep in touch with subjects omgawd -.-i can think of a hundred things to do if i withdraw lor -.- and my mom says " all u will do is play com and yadayadayada.. wadEVA.

6) DENISE?! did u enjoy v.day with ur DARLING (WEI JIE XD)? WAD DID U DO?( no link)
dede the great: YES I DID. for me to noe, and you to find out LOL

7) DENISE!!?
dede the great: wad la -.- stop calling my name!

okay aniewae.. just wanna say a few things about TJ... yea made some couple of really good frenx. one of which are my usual gang. SOPHIA(maroon jinx) LOL, together we make S.A.D ! okay total lameness but haha fun. den we have WAN YUAN (pomelo) and SI HUI (S.A.W) and not forgettin the other ppl!! i'll tok more about them next time cox this post is super long. TOMORROW GOT ROAD RUN NOOOOOO~~~~ I WAN PON LA ALAMAK. i must be a stupid idiot to ubmit my real 2.4 km timing larhx SIAN! i havent buy hse shirt lmao la. haix..

2007-01-19T22:12:00.000+08:00

LALALALA~ ok enough wif the MAdNEss! i think i'm pratically gng insane. SAVE ME HEAVEN! c'MON!! SAVE ME!! i must be loose-on-screws when i decided to take first 3 months of jc. my liberty, my time, my mental age, my LIFE! YES MY LIFE DAMMIT! which idiot told me firs 3 mths was gng to be so 'FUN', cox i just might strangle ur neck upon uncontrollable aggressive reflexes when i see you.. wadeva dat is, i'm like s-t-u-c-k. and that s-u-c-k. point no. 1 i dun care hus bloody rich man son or some infamous celeb at the schl..that is of course..if there was really such existence..ha. point 2.. architecture, building plan...wadeva it is, its h-o-r-r-e-n-d-o-u-s, cox holding my bowels for extra time brews hot temper. thirdly, some potato lookin pe teacher really needs sense driven into her dumpling head. first impressions is totally FAIL FAIL FAIL. have u no sympathy or u find every stud so cunning that u cannot help but trampling on innocent sick darlings? the other pe tchers not to mention more cool looking, are MORE understanding(the most impt factor). but u had to comment" girl why are u later den them , not even dressed yet. blablabla" yeah yeah. w-a-d-e-v-a. pls LARH. dun accuse ppl without finding out reason. i was talking to another pe tcher, i replied politely. and she said something stupid that i sincerely dun care and dun remember. she asked for my mc. mc was with civics tutor, but its still means!!! i have solid evidence, doc excused me whole week of pe. and she was like, next time i wun excuse u hor, cannot use this excuse for next week. yada yada yada.. I WUN. and its NOT AN EXCUSE. u cannot see how a sick person looks like?? my friend has to show mc for an ankle so obviously sprained. i dun think u need a microscope to see a swell right. ya, if we dun haf mc, u ask us to run har.. excuse me. if i get worse. u pay for my extra medical fee. i'll make sure i see a specialist. smiles =) that was yesterday. anwx todae went to meet dar =DDDD and explore tp again -_- i saw a fountain!! i get tired walking with a heavy bag on my shoulders easily =/ open hse not fun de -.- so boring, so me and dar walked a few metres at bedok reservoir(jus beside) den returned bak. lmao, i too weak to walk sia. anw went to tp library!!(nice!) borrowed army daze and watched wif dar in the library =DDD den he sent me off le =( so fast sia. hate my timetable end so late de X( anwx datz all. btw to junior huiting, jia you la..widen ur skies, and soar further, what may seem impossible may just be a step away. every mistake, is another lesson learnt. use that pissed off attitude as combusting fuel to soar further. although ur jie is such a lazy ass example, i believe u can do it. all the best =D

2007-01-16T21:47:00.000+08:00

SO DAM MALU CAN?! walao shudnt haf signed up in the first place -.- so traumatizing one. and total waste of time -_- yes its dat loser dance audition. teach us and force us learn new steps in 30 mins, siao one lar, my heart beat totally died for dat 1800 secs cox it totally killed me. PLUS WHY AM I SUDDENLY DOWN WIF ILLNESS? i just recovered during my japan trip in dec last yr, and it's not even one month. my throat seems to have been pierced. i spat out phlegm wif blood for firs time alamak die la. my end is nearing. hahaha.back to that stupid audition. knew how to dance those steps (the friggin dance was contemporary, i wan hip-hop dammit ROAR!) dance beats were pretty fast, cud catch up sometimes, but bcoz i was so demoralized, i totally jeopardized my dance steps into clown whirl =D exciting? DUH NO! =( feel like throwing stones at the tcher? SHE'S ONE HELL OF A "NICE" LADY. "u are the worst and slowest batch!" " this is the longest audition ever!" ah yayaya..wadEVA! teachers are meant to encourage lah! so straightforward and insulting for wad. ty lor. put on nice comment at the end..ty for making time to come here and audition bla bla bla. ya i also can say dat. stop wasting my time and save my soul. if u so want fast learners and great dancers, please go attract more DSA ppl. dun bring in a cohord of hopefuls, and just cruelly dash their wants of ever becoming a dancer under your guidance, that's just ewww. so critical. my horror. i have enuff of those please. i so soososo WANTED to leave half way lah. just tot maybe she'll lose her screws and start shouting at us like nuts if we attempt to leave the audition. i shall join anotehr PDP. zzZ so late den end. reached home not too long ago. three words: wad-the-hell.

2007-01-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

i have seriously nth to do. neva mind shall post =D went to buy swim suit todae -.- not sexy kind and not bikini, i hate swimming costumes sia. my fats are so visible. stupid sia. i'm like a hippo 'hamburgered' 360 degrees with elastic cloth material. alamak =.= so sian, why swimming got PE de, wish i cud pon zzZ i carn find my darn napfa test results. wonders why* dun think it was even given out, crapped my napfa results out. hope i dun get forced into something like road run in sec schl -.- wonder how the junior batch is dng. I MISS THE CANTEEN!! IT RAWKS!! cheap and delicious. here is expensive and simply disgusting. S.O.S!! I WILL GO BACK ONE DAY DARN IT... i miss my char siew rice with tau pok and curry veggie XD

2007-01-13T16:40:00.000+08:00

WENT TO EAT SAKE SUSHI WIF DAR YST xDDD. he bought new shirt sia and CUT HIS HAIR. stil prefer his old hair =/ he keep ordering food lor LMAO, kept reminding him of the wastage surcharges. at first he gave me the shirt to keep myself warm( so sweet =*) den i decided to use it to look like some mafia to threaten him to stop ordering.. he ordered like extra dishes of gyoza and scallop. BTW, the kakiage was nice, tako yaki and soft shell crab sushi roll not bad. after acting mafia(dun seem to work ><) ended up taking foto LOL! Dar sent me this foto as 'bonus' LOL along with the fotos of yesterday. taken during his chalet when he went to swim, and where i just looked at him waddling in water XD HAHAHA. YES i modified the foto. got watch casino royale trailer and movie??! xD the bluish appearance gives the mysterious thrilling kind of picture effect XD
dar's blue roses to me XD i finally got it XDD so happy XD he was like telling me one rose= love at firs sight, 2 roses= mutual love, 3 roses= i love eu XD so sweet aaaa~~ he wun tell me the price lol =x he gave it to me after playing pool where i lost him 1:2 X( so that seved as sweet consolation HAHA XD he din forget his promise to buy me blue roses, they're real and nice-smelling XD had SOOO much FUN XD love my baby darling LOTS XD

2007-01-07T13:24:00.000+08:00

HEYYA PPL OUT THERE~~ yes dern is bak to blogging b4 my bloody blog decomposes to crap again. SCHOOL JUST STARTED!! DID YOU PPL HAVE A GREAT NEW YEAR? duznt matter, this blog will survive!! ok off point~ aniewae. jus ended ORIENTATION 2007 XD WAAA yst dam FUNFUNFUN!!! NYRAH WON..yeyeyeyeyey~ OG11 RAWKS..our performance is first-class!!! so farnie, keep laughing while rehearsing! we imitated some key ppl in orientation and changed all the house cheers to those bai chi laugh my ass out kind. we dam slack during rehearsal, keep hearing another OG practicing music by beating objects, while we keep slacking arnd playing game. played gao xiao games that sabo-ed one ogl to do pole dancing arnd a guy LMAO! after performance and some of the romantico spiced up paegent, and all the weird dares involving the discipline master(buahahaha) we had some rock concert by dunnoe hu. o.O i dun really care buuuutt~~ IT WAS DAMN HIGH!! kept jumping doing weird stuff, some ppl began throwing water arnd lmao, got a little wet, but the principal had to interrupt -.- to scold us lol. abit fun-spoiler =/ nvmnvm~ after dat MASS DANCE..i still dunnoe the steps sia.. dance like some oversized radish bouncing up and down. danced wit jon and lisa. all three of us were like -_- cannot dance sia!!! OMG wrong turn..!! nono the other way!! gao xia muahahha. i was still thinking of joining dance club, sian gt auditions, think i haf slim chance of passing. my courage only less den 3% lor dunnoe which PDP to join sian. monday, schl really start le, wk 3 den full time-table. SIAN AHHH~~~ jc stress ouch.

2007-01-02T21:08:00.000+08:00

KONICHIWA!! yes I AM BACK FROM JAPAN. ANYONE MISS ME? okay i think no one see my blog bah lolol!! i din publicize and my posts are uninteresting so duznt really matter=D i'll just continue to post ANIEWAE XD miss my baby lots during this trip x( mwahs~ happy new yr ppl btw =D plane touched down arnd 1 am , saw fireworks shooting up lololx. summary of my trip!!! XD hokkaido RAWKS! I LOVE SNOW! although it was freezing my ass off... showing some fotos. i noe i look FATTER and still as gao xiao looking as ever, but so WHAT, wadeva~ i shall move on!!..

HA!! first day at changi airport.. still think spore airport best. got lots of facilities XD sitting on santa's sleigh wif mommy!! NOTICE: MY BLOODY HAIR STILL LOOKS NICE HERE. gawd air in japan so frikkin dry and my hair is ultra subjective to static, so combing is not even combing(in simpler terms)

some hotel near narita, having breakfast at 'The Garden' some kind of garden lol. the western food there sarks. so yah, my sis tried to take pic of me with that mini christmas tree on my head. wad a loser.

IN MY COACH!! comfy and stuff. my OVERSIZED SUNGLASSES(my dad's one =D) dun look too bad larhs. the sun terribly glaring plus reflection from snow, my vulnerable eyes are no match for them.

DRINKING CRAB MISO SOUP! some old guy from the tour said it was to die for. not bad actually XD esp in such freezing weather X( same guy was impressed wif my fast speed and pro-handling of SNOWMOBILE XD. so fun. slicing wind burned my cheeks and penetrated my fragile bones and frostbit my hands during the ride though. poor me? LOL

YES!! btw i love my furry coat XD still thinking of my mom's winter melon-like cap LOL and her bao ba zhang coat! ROFL! my darling pinnochio! was at some place with so-called most exp choco, which i din see -.- but i had this really cute long ice cream!! my sis took pic with abraham lincoln and mona lisa statue lmao.BEHIND ME THE FAMOUS HOKKAIDO HOT SPRINGS!! I LOVE HOT SPRINGS. its SO darn awesome. the sulphur IS SO GOOD. totally cured my hand rash -.-boiling spring water behing me. sulphur was tozicating my nostrils. hu cares =D one thing, I LOVE OPEN AIR HOT SPRINGS. btw u hafta be naked to enter, so ya, it was a risk. but a change from cool to hot, its a shiok feeling worth dying for XD
HA!! me trying to punch my dad pose~ eating dinner with jap setting at hotel. dressed in YUKATA XD oh man i love yukatas, dress in them to go spring bath XD
I LOVE THIS FOTO. MY ULTRA COOL SNOWMAN! i made it wif my dad!! my scarf and sunglasses on it if you notice! hair was taken from the withering grass in the snow! LOL after dat went to feed kawaii bears hu learn how to beg for food!! and where i almost lost my bloody glove -.-
YES CHOCO PINNOCHIO!!! OMG. HOW DEY DO DAT? in the famous RUSUTSU RESORT aniewae!! WHERE IT STARTED SNOWING!! MY CARRAIGE!!! I WILL GET MARRIED IN THIS! I DUN CARE!! XDDD in fairytale rusutsu resort too XD where i fell my butt off like mad skiing -.-
JAPAN CHINATOWN~ ate nice wan ton mee there XD a chinese dish after continuous jap meal

LAST DAY!! before gng airport visited this BEAUTIFUL temple at tokyo on new yr's eve... so beautiful!!!! XD jap have diff praying traditions, learned them the last time i went =D so i cud blend in as a jap, until some jap old man started toking jap to me, and i was ??? o.o lolx!

THAT's ALL!! wanted to provide more pics, but aiyah, nvm. =D jap stuff dam ex btw X( OGL leader just called me todae -.- lolx. tml start schl e. dam i hate orientation wif stupid cheers. dun ask me cheer pls. i'm not the enthusiastic sort. my gawd....~

2006-12-23T23:50:00.000+08:00

KELLY CLARKSON- MY GROWN UP CHRISTMAS LIST
Do you remember me
I sat upon your knee
I wrote to you
With childhood fantasies

Well, I'm all grown up now
And still need help somehowI'm not a child
But my heart still can dream

So here's my lifelong wish
My grown up christmas list
Not for myself
But for a world in need

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

As children we believed
The grandest sight to see
Was something lovely
Wrapped beneath our tree

Well heaven only knows
That packages and bows
Can never heal
A hurting human soul

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end
This is my grown up christmas list

What is this illusion called the innocence of youth
Maybe only in our blind belief can we ever find the truth(there'd be)

No more lives torn apart
That wars would never start
And time would heal all hearts
And everyone would have a friend
And right would always win
And love would never end, oh
This is my grown up christmas list

This is my grown up christmas list

2006-12-22T18:19:00.000+08:00

CHRISTMAS IS COMIN!! YEY~ but i'll be leaving for japan on christmas!! just changed my blog song =D all i want for christmas is you-- mariah carey ..more joyful =D DEDICATED TO MY DARLING BABY!!
yup! cox i wun be celebrating wif him =( sowwee! <333 hope u like the cute christmas card i made =/ hahax =D

2006-12-21T22:44:00.000+08:00

DAR'S BDAE PRSENT TO ME XDDD elle active jacket and this really KAWAII puppy eyed stuff toy doggie!!! XDD i noe i look horrible in the photo. but ya so what. LOL!! bought a black shirt too =DD that kind of large neck hole wooot~ comes with necklace cost me 29.90. so i'm broke again -.- oh wells =D this post is actually for a few days back but cox blogger is SO LAG. so let it be. hahax. looking for cheap glittery retro kind of hairbands. the one i saw really freaks me out 8.95. burn hole sia lolol. aniewaex.. end here yawn~ no mood blog =D

2006-12-17T23:53:00.000+08:00

THANKEW SOOOOO MUCCCHH PPL FOR MAKING IT TODAE!!! it was SO MUCH FUN!! mwahs ppl =D thAnKEw!!! started the day off peeling onion and garlic lmao, keep getting the wrong side of the knife so got teased by my dad =.= zhen shi de. aniewae went to eat roti prata and jln kayu there.. shiok! den collected otahs and stuff den came back home. i LOVE BALLOONS ppl do u noe daT!? my dad keep saying i 5 yr-old lmao la -.-lll aniwaex started pumping balloons like mad, wah MY ARM MUSCLE~~ aww~ my dad say i neva chi fan. CORRECT MA, i ate roti prata =D den got the big heavy rain, but everyone came when the rain stopped. fetched some in. chang hoe tossed me his lucky charm =/ and vincent gave me a leaf -.- say wad zhong for ten years -.- veri farnie. everyone settled down. suddenly all chiong to my study room, had to on air con due to suffocation and humidity. den we played audi LOLOLx. whole room so noisy ahahax! i was like switching sides between yilin and ying jie, helping them plae LOL!! =x den dat DERRICK HOR, everytime bluff me say wad cannot come -.- den from above i saw them strolling in.. he tried to hide but yawn~ saw liao lar!! and DAR! u good lor, conSPIRE with that RICK-DER -.- fast froward abit to eating part. keep forcing everyone to eat LOL! den after that watched the grudge, freakin sound effects scared the ass outta everyone LOL..heard f-words being thrown arnd when the bloody ghost came popping into scene. initially got alot of ppl ran up, den almost da jia came down to watch. jose and yilin keep screaming. jon can take it WOW. ying jie hide lol, keep covering her ears too. ming hui went to close her eyes at some parts!! XD but forced her to see mUAHAHHA! sadist! yining came midway LOL! chang hoe keep gng toilet. aw~ den cut cake time!! dunnoe why everyone like so far away~~ LOL thx for the bdae song XD and dat joselyn plus ying jie say wad dede i tell u smth, yuan lai is SMASH CAKE ON ME WALAO. den that fayt!! ARR-BISH! my whole shirt chocolate sia. derrick got his share =D =x den went up again with presents, opened them up. REALLY NICE PREZZIES! thx!! thankew wan ting and wei xiang, even though u all cudnt come but REALLy, thankew for ur prezzies really aprreciate them! biing yih and jon did a very nice ornament, will be displaying it in room along wif dar's candle. wonder wads dar's real present =P gor's and kevin's cup with cute stuff toy all coming to my room!! that turtle will join my stuff toy collection and thx vincent and gang for the corrine may cd! thx yilin for that really cute bear! thx ben for the stuff toy dog. thankew jose and ying jie and SI BEI and CHOO, even though u carn come, THX for ur present, that bag is SO COOL XD Thx ming hui!! for borrowing that grudge cd and the almond food =D after present opening, haha ying jie took out this book'world's DIRTIEST jokes' the guys were like so into it -.- eric was like so absorbed and chang hoe posed with it for a picture by dar's phone!gordon more cham -.- SUPER absorbed into another book about sexuality and stuff rite -.- evidence is wif me HAHAHAH! after guys left, cuzin still playign audi XD, girls left me , jose, ying jie plus dar and derr. so we play black jack cox the cards not complete LOL played, managed to win some miserable cents, sitll dun understand why that Derrick so luckie -.- after sending all of them home, with a hug for girls and dar, and handshakes for the guys, went to bathe!! so refreshing, kinda tired, but u all really made my day, wanna thank u all for making this such a joyous and memorable occassion, when i get the video from my dad, u are all welcome to see it =D thanks ONCE AGAIN LOL!!!

2006-12-16T19:46:00.000+08:00

jus cut my hair, dad came to pick me and he had this frown on his face unlike last time when i cut short. That hair was nice la i admit, budden ppl wan change rite?he was like wHY dun U cut it short??! den i was like i dunwan CAN?! den he said smth like might as well let him cut my hair please sia >< nice ="D">< wonder whetehr before the party i can go buy some white hoopies..knew i shud haf bought them when i saw them! T.T shud i plae maple again, my life is so boring. aniewae was SUPPOSED to work, but since i was sick, and friday was a totally boring day, decided not but got abit regret when my aunt called to tell me saturday (todae) had alot of ppl and a SANTA HAT WAS BOUGHT T_T hope my mom brings it bak when she goes to giv my aunt a holiday hat =( gimmeeee!!! SANTA HAT!!! aaaa~ LOL. okok..christmas is coming. have ye tot of aniething to giv to ur special and loved ones yet =D joy to dah world~ btw, i heard choo min is gng caroling. omg -.- wonder whether the place they were caroling at will become a ghost street. =) silent nite~~~ Hooooly nighttt~

2006-12-15T23:07:00.000+08:00

checked my posting yesterdae, got into temasek jc din really care where i was posted to, cox it was either the first or second choice. might haf high possibility of gng to nanyang jc after 3 mths cox of AEP or even poly if i so hate jc life. already started my portfolio not really fantastic, shud exert a 110% haix. mom said if gng poly, wun encourage the art course for me T_T, but if i enroll into one of those science courses, wud be s'pore poly or ngee ann lor, think sumone will be disappointed upon seeing this, sorry T_T. aniewae todae started another round of boring work at the ulu funan digital mall to SLEEP, until the senior senior manager came walkin arnd ahahhax =D ppl come and go. some come to compare prices with those they just bought not too long ago from sumwhere else -.- dunnoe for wad, waste my time. honestly, the products are absolutely -.- one customer not happy wif the product's outdated features and the price. HELLO? if u're nt buying den dun complain so much! walk away la, why complain to us promoters -.- we din manufacture that thing. I may be amateur but u are definitely nt much better zZz some din even look at me, some just nodded smiled and walked away. wad a boring crowd. some sense must be knocked into the boss, why hav a road show here where the ppl consumers are so scarce-.- and the advertising is obviosuly -.- nt only waste money on this road show, u lose money -.- wish i had some of those cute santa hats XD saw a no. of food franchise workers wearing it! our deco is quite green, whether related to christmas i dunnoe man, but wad i see is CNY plants lmao! btw I'M SICK. darn having cold and cough. had terrible cramps aftr dining at academy bistro. the food there is fab!! five stars man~ located at supreme court. oh yah. had to pass thru this security screening thing. I BOUGHT AYUMI CD, SECRET comes with a free POSTER..aww~ aniewae..passed the poster thru the security screening thing but somehow got stuck at the entrance of the screening thingie, so took it out, it's just paper aniewae -.- anyway stupid security guard at the other end asked me wads this mam? it's a POSTER? paper??! how much harm can it do? does it look like a bloody weapon, i dun think i look like a terrorist either-.- wadeva larhx. boa's single is also out too! winter love i think. hahahax. aniewae, added a cute slide at my personal info site =D, plus a chnage of song.. think i changing it again XD

2006-12-14T23:43:00.000+08:00

yesterday promised huiting that i'd treat her to a movie for getting into triple science. brought my small cuzin wif me too =D actually she din wanna come cox she tot wad me and huiting were watching wun be her type of show -.- and dat she wanted to continue playing audi=.= talking abt audi, got bad experience from pc bunk -.- some kind of service they haf there zZZ dun think will be gng there in a while. 4 bucks per hr..total waste of time -.- aniewaex.. went to watch eragon with huiting and cuzin =D danr the dragon is so friggin CUTE, so is the egg.. huiting kept saying it was like a blue jelly bean lolx! eragon kinda cool, not so draggy as lord of the rings, animation, visual effects totally rawk, u shud go watch it sia. wanted to play house of the dead 4 wif huiting den huiting dunwan T.T sadded aniewae played time crisis 3 got to elvel 2 den died -.- my cuzin din really like the arcade bah, so took her out to 'shop' came by this made with love shop. DARN..the things inside are so pretty but SO EX.. waaa..bought some stuff, go home to make collage, its half done =D hope can complete it soon=D oh yeh, i did one string made christmas tree while accompanying dar study, looks okay bah, maybe need some extra deco. gonna combine it with my collage to complete my dec craft collection, i noe its small but, hey got my hard work spewn innit and i'm not a really good at crafting.aww~ btw bdae party on 17th!! late afternoon..remember hor =D try to come please..we really got lack of girls sia -.- having friggin cough T.T this is so total lame. flu coming too..sickening sia. oh wells ciao ppl.. tml got work again -.- haixx!!!

2006-12-01T23:58:00.000+08:00

2nd day. I CAN TAHAN. I THINK I CAN WHOOSH! my grandma say i wun last. ya right. i have my mom's blood in me. i neva self motivate, but the toll on my feet has froced me to =( haix, exactly i must be a lunatic piece of crap to have accepted that job.( ok 40% is i accept 60% mother ask me shud work and in other words, dun be a parasite) had to sacrifice my 2nd mth anv =( anwx -.- i neva se my sis work lor. aniewae..she not keen, i nid $$ so work is like IMPORTANT for that instant. now -_- honestly. i stand from 10 am to 9 at night wasting saliva persuading ppl, and giving heavy piles of flyers. i just finished training not to long ago, my muscles ache, and its worse oh no =( why did i ever wanna be a promoter. its like those consumers esp those really tackey ones like my dad really drive me up the wall. s'poreans as usual. dun u think? the xtra kiasu-ness like OMGAWD. pity me bah, i no chair sit, i no water, i wear hard lens, yet i still strain my smiling muscles and spew saliva to persuade mister and mam to buy faint* haix, product not up to standard compared to other soaring technologies, no matter how we promoters persuade, still cannot sell de ma. but lets put it dat way, actually sitex dam cool =D got stylish laptops, phones, PDAs, ipods, woah seh. sumore got this big sized red dog(costumed person) walking arnd. so mega cute. plus got santa costumes, and soem wierd looking super guy costumes.. I LOVE SANTA HATS..GIMMMEEEHHH. its so darn cute ok. got sexy models flashin their big____(fill in the blank) gawd..they wear dam skimpy nehs. me, and my 2 happy promoters, li fen, feline were like O.O googlie eye =D den we were like no wonder we carn sell la. den li fen was like ya, we only have child labour, den i kenna pointed at-.- lmao. my mouth muscles weak liao.. some consumers jus ignored the pitiful us T_T one look also dunwan see =( dar came to deliver sweets and drink =D arigato! my aunt saw him, say he not shuai, den i told feline hu my aunt think was shuai. both of us were like PLEASE lor! YEee.. my aunt is like some anti-spectacled person. -.- aniewae finished work, exchanged lame jokes with aunt's colleagues, den hopped into car to GO HOME. and hi, i'm blogging now =) anwx see ya

2006-11-27T23:31:00.000+08:00

today! yes today. went for a bloody job interview just to find out they only accept 16 yrs old. I'M JUST ONE MONTH TO MY BIRTHDAY WTH. smsed me dad, asked him why wasnt i given birth earlier. he sent back an sms saying i din wanna come out and i was even overdue -.- haha very funny -.-no diff lor zhen shi de. joselyn got frustrated at filling the details and regretted applying for dat job. asked my mom to help ask my ah yi whether she can help me get another cd packing job. so lame lor -.- went wif jose to eat lunch at tampines mall. her seafood tom yum soup was a total waste of money and mine wasnt veri fantastic either. settled for ice desserts which are really tasty. my ice jelly w cocktail was supherb unlike the loser one at bugis which i ate wif dar. i feel like PUKINg. its so plain -.- the ice was so CHUNKY. had to practically chop it using the spoon which was kinda helpless -__- aniewaex ate until me and jose were shivering like mad, so friggin cold. LOL went to look at some hairbands. din buy any cox cudnt find the design i wanted. jose wanted to find cross stitching, but no where sell. walk until we both turn mad and sulky LOL. called fayt and derr, waited for a century when finally fayt marched in, den a decade later, derr gor finally arrived. nice try 'suri' LOL went to paya lebar to eat spring chicken!! root beer rocks. chilli rocks. cheese double thumbs =D but the banana split abit pathetic lei -.- left the chicken breast cox it was so dry and hard. fries and coleslaw were ok =D after balloonin up, went to play games=D since we're in such an ulu auntie paradise might as well. found a corner and started playing heart attack. i kept winning so fun..PIAK! XD den gt bored den started playing games dat require concentration. i got the forfeit for first game haix -.- i from no flaws to 5 flaws den tadah forfeit -.- dat derr gorgor la, hai me de zZZ den wan hai him back, den plan backfire, sian. did 5 stupid star jumps LOL wif derr's cap on.. hope my face unclear =D dey sumore wan put youtube.lmao la. den came fayt's turn HAHAHA 6 x 7 is 32 den 3x8=28 lmao so funny, all of us laugh like mad. he did 5 starjumps, 5 push ups. qiang! den come derr turn in the next game, me and jose conspire hai him XD same forfeit as fayt. all recorded in a handphone =D den jose in the end cudnt escape the claws of o-pei-som, kenna same forfeit as me XD den we went home =D had lotsa fun. gtta remember to do some sketches before this sat for the port folio meeting wif derr friend haix. and jose i need stringie =D thankew honey.

2006-11-27T22:57:00.000+08:00

WAAHAHAH. yes denise is back in dah house. ooh yeh =D i noe i din blog for months but hey, got those darn o lvls, besides mugging every single day and night till ur inner cells rupture, there's really nth to add unless u wan a daily scoop of spongebob underpants =D aniewae o lvls is friggin over..ya i noe its kinda late to announce but my fingers got itchy, so back to blogging =D over and done with the dozen maths and sciences prelim papers which almost became my daily supper. gtta say i miss those CME lessons, i think i got a B =) cox i din hand up my workbook let alone do it. HAHAHAHA! miss sleeping in class suddenly. my MESSY TABLE..MUACKS!! next year getting a dose of jc life, wonder how screwed up i'd be. miss the tchers yeh love ya guys for supporting us, tolerating our nonsensical ANTHEM SINGING and crap talk. miss the shouts of gambling fanatics in our class lmao lah. and most of all my darling friends =D i'll just do a short overview of the ppl close me hart in class. =D
scholars: u guys rawk totally! although we sumtimes get O.O when u speak ur cute foreign languages. u have been such FUN ADDITIONs to the 402 family. yes i remember being entangled in wierd science exhibitions wif the pinoy scholars, drawing my hart out wif val the pontianak, threatening to cut ellyna's fav hair XD, gossiping wif the malay scholars, jaq and jaymie =D
yilin choo minghui: 4 yrs ppl. =D ma yilin aka cutie ma aka bony, u will forever be my fav skeleton. u still owe me my shawl baby. choo. aka chio bu. yes u taught as many enlightening things. thought the most DA LA BA and spastic person, u rawk as a friend baby. and please la, ppl touch u abit only, dun scream lei LOL! hope u get ur sweethart soon =D ming hui. i remember those zZZ trainings we went thru, had our ups and downs but hey u're fun, clever and enthu =D stay happy girl.
yingjie sibei joselyn wanting esther:
ying jie the lao bian tai, almost touch my pi gu one -.- always share bian tai jokes and bully choo =D love ya for wad u are =D si bei. so white -.- use colgate bathe de. aniewae always look blur, sotong, but overall a really cool dancing girl.rawk on =D joselyn. yes my honey =D always do bad things wif me. known as chilli chan or to choo, scariest girl in the class. always jio her for horror shows XD love ya =D u rawk. esther. my darling marshmallow hu i always experiment drawings on her hand. lovable funny sunshine girl. god bless. =D
guys:
haha dun really noe alot of u really well but =D u ppl rawk too =) gonna name out a few. but if din mention ur name doesnt mean u're not special =) lian yining, my gorgor. got pranked by choo, but pranked choo back. u;re growing taller. all the best. biing yih. i spelt correct ba? lolx er. thanks for organising the chalet. ur enthusiasm is an inspiration =) bryan. 4 yrs haha. enjoy 'basketballing' all the best in getting to the jc u wish. jonathan. good fren hu advises me, supports me. ur singing can improve la haha =D vincent. good fren hu also advised me. had fun knowing u. chang hoe. always make fun of my chinese name and rap it sumore -.- funny guy. all the best. wei xiang. always ask me all the science and maths questions. thx for helping me in my subjects too hahax. best wishes too. Eric thanks for the bbq dat time. it was very successful. =) for the rest, u've been fun =D love 402 =D get ready for the next chapter but dun forget the friendship u've forged thru the 2 or 4 yrs. hope that there will be days where u turn back and look at the previous chapter and treasure every memory of it =D

2006-09-29T21:26:00.000+08:00

can't believe that idiot did that. swore i wudn't curse and swear on this lets-all-love-life blog..but just gtta let it out baa, else i'm like gonna excalate into soem frenzy. wad kind of stupid friggin person was he. fine, it was my fault i believe, but it's not as if he's not in the wrong la. i wasnt punished for wad i did but rather he had a sudden pulse of insanity or smth, like some temporary lost of humanity, DISGUSTINg laR. friggin crying now, where's the bloody kleenex when i need it(not funny) feel very nauseatic and very sore. point here: he was abt to hack me wif a fickin bamboo..SIAO arh. i haven got beaten a shit since pri 5 and i'm so not being humiliated now lor. dunnoe why i so thick skin then, i was literally had no wave of terror well up in me. siao one me. dunno where i received guts equivalent to a hardcore. just din feel like reasoning with such authoritative sucker.got protected by my mother luckily. bless me. i think i wun be able to stand up if really took the blow. another pt: toleration. think there's a limit. in this liberal world, i get a say. like wtf. so pissed. feel as if i'm swallowing pails of anger. pt 3: Respect. i dun haf it. so dun expect it when u aint respectful to me. pt4: i'm the devil here unfortunately. gross right? watever it is. the main pt was he went mad. and that's so pissy..

2006-09-23T00:22:00.000+08:00

HA! my dog..rusky so cute ritex..my scanner not working lahx..carn post any of my drawings. aniewae, he shoo cute lorx. he just finished bathing, head stick out thru the hole of teh towel.hahax XD prelim results getting bak one by one. not very fanatstic. my physics bloody hell got 8/30 for essay, i just scrapped b4 for overall lor..nice try de~ u screwed big time. hope my eng can get a b4 at least T.T monday getting lerx.i almost slept during the paper, so darn boring can..eng gonna get screwed too, slap slap* lolx!

2006-09-16T03:11:00.000+08:00

todae kinda moody..got abit mood swing todae T.T dunno whetehr got de zui ppl..aniewaex. went compass wif that choo and jose. jose bought some hp cleaner, got cheated LOL. the thing look too cute lerx. todae so tired..dam sleepy..slept duuno how mnay times in the day..tml got some etiquette thignie lmao.
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2006-09-08T19:08:00.000+08:00

todae went to celebrate jose bdae..happy bdae chillichan. 16 yrs old le lor.todae ate alot of cie cream..gonna grow fat again. haix. todae also cycle unitl butt pain, hope can recover fast else go toilet sure die -.-''
<<my drawing lolx. since i was usin pen to draw immediately. made a mistake at teh shoe =P

2006-09-08T00:48:00.000+08:00

my pleasure to announce that this blog is reopened again. BUt since i not SUCH A REGULAR BLOGGER. as seen from my previous entry is liek dated centuries ago. i gave this blog a makeover, so making it close to my hart. and since i realised that ranting vulgar and sadistic comments dun fit this blog. i decided that this blog will SELDOM contain any value or morals nor any pissed, crazed demoralised comments or any rants. however..it will be a tribute to the drawings and creations i made. they may not be fantastic..but since some of my friends say its such a waste to throw away my drawings, i might as well spread it on this blog before throwing them away HAHA. enjoy ur stay. love, dede. all the way~

2006-06-02T21:36:00.000+08:00

OMGAWD..YES IT IS..I CARN BELIEVE IT BUT YESH YESH YESH..MY DARLING DARLING WALLET IS FOUND... XD SO HAPPY OKAY..wah..thankew man.. got NEW PHONE too..I AM SO DAM HAPPIE..no need to tolerate thta lousy phone..zzZZ so kenna sai..aniewae. SO HAPPY OKAY..I LOVE MY WALLET.MUAKZ...SOON it shall be reunited wif me..I AM SO HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY...i wanted to put up my lost and found poster of my wallet on my blog todae..i shall showcase it in the next post..since my sis is using teh com which is connected to the scanner..awwwx..aniewae..I LOVE MY WALLET..and i think my phone is not bad lah.. not that kind of stylish one..just a better phone..lolx! aniewae.. so ahppy =P =DD
denise lurves her wallet...loves it so much.
to my dear darling wallet: muakz..we shall b reunited*

2006-05-29T21:59:00.000+08:00

YEY..CHINESE O'S ARE ALMOST OVER..and U NOE WAD I GET AFTER I FINISHED MY PAPERS....A STINKIN FREAK A$$ TRAGEDY HAS TO FALL UPON Me WAD THE HELL..THAT WALLET IS MY BDAE PRESENT OKAYYY~ TO WHOEVER THAT SHIT FICKIN IDIOT HU TOOK MY WALLET..U SHUD WATCH UR OWN BLOODY BACK..COZ I MAY JUST BE CURSING MY HEAD OFF ON YE! AND TO THOSE DISHONEST POOL OF LOSERS U OUGHT TO BE SHITTIN ASHAMED OF UR OWNSELVES.. U BALLESS PIECE OF SHIT. WAD IF UR OWN POOPY PIECE OF WALLET WAS TAKEN BY SOMEONE ELSE HUR.. U'LL FEEL SHIT RITE!!! IF I EVER MEET U, I'LL DIG UR STOOPID EYEBALLS OUT AND SQUISH EM...HAHA. U DESERVE SOME SLAPPING..YES U DO..FICKIN ASSHOLE...GO EARN UR OWN BUCKS, GO ROB A BANK! GET A LIFE...RETURN IT...U JUST RUINED MY LIFE AND ITZ TIME U RUINED URS..SINK THAT INTO UR HEAD..PEA-BRAIN!
i think i'm super vulgar..carn help it when i'm pissed rite..wadz wrng wif these idiots lor..zzZZ aniewae ate sakae sushi wif jose and choo.. quite funny sia especially wif spastic choo..help me 4get abt my wallet awhile..ate until almost vomit..gained weight again..noo.. -.- took a pix of a cockroach in the toilet. saw choo off, den went to watch x-men 3 wif jose, quite saddenin...smth told me to watch over the hedge but wu shuo wei lol..the show not bad ba..keep thinking about my bloody wallet --.-- bought two wristbands and took neos wif jose..i'm broke..totally..gonna fast until i restore wadz supposed to be in my wallet...itz myuk, black, says: oh shutup, has my IC, ez-link,32 bucks, jap yen, posb card, insurance card, neoprints, and my heartbreak...my life has just turned from sorrow to pure bleakness..yay -.-

2006-05-26T18:55:00.000+08:00

two more days to chinese o lvls..totally freaked out..it's stupid but i'm blogging for inspirations for writing bao zhang bao dao on blogs harhar, =D aniewaez..boarded the lame 161 bus that took so friggin long with a toxic smoker, took me the end of schl to realize my hp is at home, and took a bus bak on a 163 with a uncourteous woman..zzZ back at home..shaking leg..den gonna start revising again..so fun =D i din go for eng tuition =/ MT intensive mah..think i gonna get smashed by my fren, oh well~ =)
muscles hurt..darnnit..thx to the push-ups and sit-ups during PE..did that loser skinfold test too..psst.dun ask me abt how fat i am..ask how thin i am...=D fine..i'm chubby wadeva..chubby is cute XD RIGHT? aniewae...hope i recover soon..laughed so much during chinese intensive coz i made 'complimented' jay's body structure, appeared i almost died of 1.stomach muscle pain 2. peini's constant blows...LOL! i shall be sadist for the next few days... thx to the joy of stress =D i'll grow thinner! yey! bye ppl..life rawks. not really.

2006-05-23T17:55:00.000+08:00

LIFE STINKS OKAY.
yea obviously, carn stand it no more. he just wasted my time..still scold me back..wadz his problem..why izzit always my friggin dam fault..WHY?! wadeva larhs..
chinese o lvl nearing day by day...my diu lian compo got 25/50 bahahaz..den haf to see lowlishan zzZZ..at least found out my stupid mistakes..
mid yr sarks..my bio gt b4..lucky -.- others gt better and i was just wondering why isnt HE our bio teacher. YES WHY? sian~ looks at my bio result* i think i've made myself a loser =.= and my english..depressed...dunwan to think abt it..just gets more and more T.T had no appetite for recess but felt i needed to egt outta class for lunch. nid energy to move my fei rou. =D LOL tml got competition again... boredom..missin chinese again...aniewae...shout outs: choo dun be so pervertic and letter F spastic =D. Jose..be vulgar..it's healthy for the soul.

if i could only earse all this pain... i noe i am far luckier then others...in life, survival, but itz hard not to accept that all these pains are turning my life into a sadistic mourn for the dead

2006-05-22T20:18:00.000+08:00

if i could just change this life of pursuit for nth-ness and total lameness, i'd do anything... wadeva -.- i give up. feel liek a rotten egg-.-''' my mid yr stinks, everything stinks and i really haf no idea wad's it gonna be for the coming up exams. less den one week b4 chinese olvls... zzZ PANIC! at least it's not english, coz i just realised i haf one of the worse english brain pulse in the whole of 'sumwherre'. wu shuo wei! i wud like to silently thank those hu haf shared my misery cause i guess it must be hard to tahan my woes..LOL! aniewae...bought my dog a new squeaky toy, she's overpossesive over it. o.o i still feel miserable =/ oh well~ karma -.-

i'll smile again somehow..STOOPID MID YR..YUCK. =)