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♥ her eXIstence .
fully authorized and rawkin

i am: deniseee (dede)
young and alive: 17 years old
descended: december20 1990
my address: go guess urself
my h/p no: guess again
my e-mail add: go guess lalalala
sign: sagittarius

apart from my two small eyes, and one nose, and mouth, i'm simple, outgoing, "voilently classy" and so-much-cuter-than-you, otherwise i think i'm a rather normal self-obsessed individual =)

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you're not denise. i am.

AUTHOR'S NOTE
 this blog is owned by me and therefore i possess the freedom of speech. i happen to be born quite unglam,not pretty nor uptown, i dont bitch and i hate backstabbers and hypocrites. if my post annoys you, then leave for all i care =D

in dedication and loving memory of viki(2001~2007)i will always love you

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♥ lavish me
my loveys and wishies

♥ ayu/boa
♥ anime
♥ world peace
♥ money =D
♥ HOLIDAY
♥ watch anime and eat cup noodle
♥ food
♥ jian fei
♥ good results
♥ a boll-jointed doll
♥ smile everyday =)

♥ dear denise
make your fingers do the talkin




no vulgarities, else i smack your toot*

♥ long ago .
instant time travel

May 2006
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September 2006
November 2006
December 2006
January 2007
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March 2008
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♥ friends
love em' squeeze them!

kleo
yilin
choo min
huiting
fayt
derrick
joselyn
blue
wee siong
elijah
Royston
shiying
chongyan
moon kian
huisan
Ling!
alicia
julia
joann
wenjing

note: i dont link everybody cux it's troublesome.tag if you want me to add in your link~loves,denise



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♥ credits .
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Friday, October 24, 2008
fairytales dont exist 1:07:00 AM

so i had an inner voice. and this was what it penetrated into me necessantly:

stop trying to smile when you know you cant
stop trying too hard to hear yourself laugh again.
stop tearing, your tears wont reach anyone
stop swearing, the world wont wait for you
stop reaching out and thinking back through.

stop screaming with a hopeless voice
stop bleeding in that heart of yours.
stop taking yourself for granted.
stop your ridiculous wails for a better tomorrow.

stop telling people youre fine.
stop giving that face with a half hidden sorrow.
stop saying yes and making empty promises
stop trying to warm yourself up, when there's no one to give that warmth.

i'm drowning in my own emotions, my own wails, promises that i make to people and myself. I'm sinking into despair, being tickled by my own sensitivity, closing walls around me. I barely have a shoulder around me and my life's wasting away. I start to hate, i start to detest, i start to grudge, i start to give up...

so where did she go to?
where did denise go to?
where did her smiles went to?
where did her warmth went to?

if i could just pause my sight, my hearing, my vocals...
and stop my heartbeat for a moment.
maybe this world would become more peaceful.

if i could be allowed to fall slowly, and ignore everything.. what a wonderful world.

Denise currently does not wish to be spoken about how emo she is, cause i'll tell you why i am feeling so if i think you're close to me. if you do care, you can always tell me, it'll make me feel better, maybe. if you dont.. i dont realy care either, and it's best you leave me alone.